I am a rising freshman in college and have been thinking a lot about different decisions I have made over the past couple years and if I am making the right decision in my college choice. I wasn’t sure about posting on here, but I figure it can’t hurt to see if anyone has advice for me or similar situations they have been involved in. Some background- I live in West Virginia and looked at maybe 5 or 6 colleges including WVU, Wisconsin, Ohio State, Virginia Tech, and Pitt. I got a 33 on the act and was 2nd in my class of about 400 until my senior year. During the past year, I absolutely tanked and after not even getting a b on a report card I got two c’s and three bs on my final transcript. I have been having a lot of stomach issues which have made me become really depressed and I didn’t put as much time into my schoolwork and my college decision as I wanted. I applied to every college the night before each deadline and didn’t really put any time into my essays or anything else because I just didn’t have any motivation to do anything. When April came, my stomach issues were still there and I still had no idea what to do for school. The only school I really loved was Wisconsin, but since they don’t offer any merit aid it was impossible to go there for me with out of state tuition at 35k a year. I ended up choosing Ohio State even though I wasn’t completely sure about my decision. I have grown up rooting against Ohio state, but when I went there it seemed like a really cool place with a lot of opportunities and other schools out of state I applied to and liked just weren’t affordable. I was pretty well liked in high school and got along with pretty much everyone and have some good friends going to wvu, so I kind of regret not going there as well even though I wasn’t absolutely in love with everything in Morgantown. I chose ohio state because it is in a big city and I felt like it would allow me to get out of my comfort zone, but it is not like I absolutely love the school or the football team and I am somewhat introverted so I am worried about the atmosphere. I also thought that maybe some of my depression would go away if I got away from my small hometown for a while, but I don’t know about that either. I know some of the problems I have talked about have nothing to do with my college decision, but I am feeling a lot of anxiety about my different choices and feel like if I wasn’t depressed my senior year I would have had more options for school and instead of choosing a school that seemed “good enough” at the last second I would have put more thought into it and could be really happy about my decision and excited for the years to come. If anyone has any advice about their experience at Ohio State, depression in college and high school, or just not being too entirely enthusiastic about their college choice it would help to put things into perspective better about how I am feeling compared to others.
First, try using paragraphs. That’s a lot to read.
You need to see a therapist. Depression is an a illness and it sounds like you need help. As far as Ohio state, you will be fine. It’s a good school. You will meet people and do well if youget some help. Don’t delay. And stop wondering about what might have been, becasue it’s pointless. You made decisions and you deal with them. If things don’t work out, transfer. There is no point speculating anymore on what has already happened.