<p>it’ll be December 12th, 4AM my time! Guess I’ll wake up around 3.55?</p>
<p>for the first time ever–
i couldn’t sleep because i was anxious.
i had a series of 3 dreams.
1st one was acceptance.
2nd was rejection.
3rd was deferral.
same dream, different outcome.
and i was half awake for the rejection dream and deferral dream.
oh. my. goodness.<br>
its. TODAY.
im going to be staring at the clock alllll day…a;osiourp0aw89ur;oaierljwrlkf!!!</p>
<p>i am holding my notebook on my knee, waiting anxiously on my bed!!!
my friends are trying to make me feel better on msn but it’s not much help 
its also tiring that i shud wait till 3 am (Thats when the decision will come out coz i live in southeast asia) urgh urgh
good luck guys</p>
<p>I just got home as well… maybe I should have stayed at school :/</p>
<p>the suspense is killing me.</p>
<p>is it saturday there?</p>
<p>I have to sit through class in half an hour. Ugh.</p>
<p>lol i’m gonna have an access to computer all time</p>
<p>I better finish my AP bio test early so i can check my result :P</p>
<p>Regardless of where I am (likely in my room), I’ll be crying, ha, regardless of my decision.</p>
<p>^^^ Same here underdog.</p>
<p>GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!! We only have ONE HOUR and NINE minutes LEFT!!</p>
<p>Dayyyyyyyyyyum! Decisions will be here before we know it! I don’t know if I want mine! :)</p>
<p>I know that I’m not ready for my decision-- not 100% at least. My English teacher offered for me to come in and check in her room after school (2:35 my time, 3:35 east coast time)…but I think I would rather check it alone at home so that I can just breathe deeply and try to think straight… o_O</p>
<p>Yeah… I wouldn’t want to check with a teacher… or anyone, ha. I want to be alone. I don’t like crying in front of others. 
haha</p>
<p>im going to find out at 11PM here
sitting at home, staring at the clock, and getting my penn shirt ready (which i can hopefully wear with pride)</p>
<p>My stomache hurts, I have no appetite (I want to puke) and my heart is pounding out of my chest. Never felt this bad about decisions.</p>
<p>i completely agree.
this is a weird feeling.
ive never felt like this before
i dont know how to celebrate
i dont know how to commit mental suicide</p>
<p>Well, the anticipation will end in just a few minutes!!! </p>
<p>Listen to some music. That’s what I’m doing. It’s kind of distracting… and soothing.</p>
<p>Oh man guys! Just remember that no matter what happens we will ALL be okay and we’ll all end up somewhere next year where we will be happy. Whether at Penn or not, this whole process will be behind us and we’ll be enjoying ourselves!!!</p>
<p>Try to believe that! I really do! And it makes me feel SO much better. You guys are all amazing people!</p>
<p>YOU GUYS HAVE HELPED ME SO MUCH
SERIOUSLY
glad I wasn’t on this journey along…I HAD ALL OF YOU :)</p>
<p>Ah! <em>thinks positive</em> <em>breathes</em></p>
<p>i really am trying. i really am. but i can’t say i wont be extremely disappointed and depressed…
i just want to get this over with.
a;loiuro983urapoif !!! AHH</p>