<p>Hi, this is gonna be sort of a long post so bear with me here. And for the record, I'm going to be a junior next year. </p>
<p>This last year I went to a virtual school, my first time homeschooling; I left public school because every aspect of my time there was not enjoyable. The education was subpar, the principal never cooperated with the students, and my friends were just "friends". My year at virtual school, though, kind of made my academic record a big ol' mess. The biggest problem for me was procrastination, whether out of pure laziness or fear of failure (usually both). I managed with my procrastination first semester, getting a 4.14 GPA, but my second semester was an utter disaster. Like, it was really bad. I had two AP tests to take, and I didn't study for both of them until the weekend before; however, I managed to scrape by again with a 3 and 4. I kept procrastinating after that, though, and I ended up failing an AP class. A huge F right on my report card because...get this...I didn't turn in enough work. I asked my teacher if I still could turn it in, though, and he said yes. Unfortunately, I only turned in one assignment. This was back in early June, and I STILL didn't do the rest of the assignments. I've only started working again right now. I've gotten A's for the rest of my classes, though. But still. An F. </p>
<p>Despite this, I still enjoyed online school and prefer it over public. My mom and brother agree to give me another chance in virtual school since even though I messed up with that F, I still did pretty well in school, and there are a lot more classes in online school. My dad doesn't agree and wants to send me back to public. I agree with both sides, so I'm pretty torn between online and public school. I kind of am leaning towards public school, as I think I would be less distracted there and it would be better for me academically, but I"m not up for facing my former classmates. On the other hand, I really enjoy the classes I'm taking in online school. </p>
<p>Really, any opinions or advice would be appreciated. Thanks for taking the time to read this, haha! </p>
<p>Well, it seems like you cant handle the online school due to lack of self motivation. If you can’t become motivated then I definitely believe you should go back to public school.</p>
<p>But this leads to questions…
-Why weren’t you motivated?
-Why did you let yourself fail?
-What was distracting you?</p>
<p>Also, are private schools an option? The education would probably be better and it will give you an opportunity to make better friends.</p>
<p>Hmmm…well, like I said, the main reason I wasn’t motivated was because of the fear of failure (pretty ironic, I know). I think that if I give myself another chance though, I would learn from this past year’s mistakes…the thing is, I’m scared of giving myself that chance because I’m afraid I’ll mess it up again. </p>
<p>Probably the thing that was distracting me the most was the internet, of course. Just browsing social networks, going on YouTube, whatever. I know it wasted a lot of my time. </p>
<p>Private schools? No, I don’t think my parents will allow it; anyways, there aren’t a lot of private schools in my area. </p>
<p>Thanks for taking the time to reply, by the way. I’m just trying to work it out for myself before I talk it over with my parents. </p>
<p>It sounds like it would be better for you to go to public school. You don’t have to love the people there or anything. Would you have any opportunities to take dual-enrollment classes at a local college?</p>
<p>Just take care in online school. Remember that effort is all-year, stay in contact with the teachers to create a path for success, ask if you need help, study, and with online distractions, try to set a time amount that you feel comfortable spending on procrastinating. Perhaps try split-screen windows, playing music while you work or calling friends while you work.</p>
<p>@igc099 I can definitely relate to you about the fear of failure. I used to be so afraid of failing that I thought it would be better to not try at all and it ruined me. Recently, I got over it and realized that I could never fail if I try my hardest. This fear of failure will make a huge impact on your success in public school as well and other sitiuations in the future. </p>
<p>With that being said, I believe you should go to public school. There will be no internet to distract you and hopefully you can get over your fear of failing. And about your “friends”, you do not need them. Just remember, school is about learning, not socializing. </p>