<p>Yeah, this story doesn’t add up, but here’s a rude gesture also to the Protestant work ethic. Hitting someone on their performance review for enjoying the use of their sick days- the idea of it! </p>
<p>Something doesn’t make sense about this story. Feeling awful unless you get the exact right amount of sleep each night is not normal and should be under medical attention. If there’s no effective treatment, that’s one thing, but a doctor can still confirm what you experience and try to figure out why, which can help you achieve your goals in life- by the way, even if you do have a condition, you will probably not ever be able to get a job with anyone too caught up in the ideology of regular hours. (I oppose that ideology; flexibility is a powerful thing and can be extended, to great effect, with a few minor adjustments). </p>
<p>But the fact that there’s no medical attention on what’s going on with you strikes me as… odd. I think there is more to this story. There are lots of reasons to be like me- chronically late, marginally motivated, still managing to pull off a top performance most of the time anyway. In my case, it is an elaborate maze of soul-crushing depression, a little bit of arrogance, a little bit of non-arrogant disregard for regulations that are being enforced due to their existence rather than their merits, and just not having a very conscientious, well-organized personality type. I feel like what is going on with you is more likely to be that. </p>
<p>I have no idea if or how this will impact your college admission options, but it will <em>most certainly</em> affect the rest of your life. Carefully examine whether you really want to bear this cross your whole life. Chances are, it’s really not worth it, and you should be scrapping with all your might to alter this pattern you’ve established. One method that would occur to me is setting up a very carefully scheduled and regulated life, including dietary and exercise regimens to help you get tired at the right time, a sleep aid if you’re not falling asleep when you need to fall asleep, and a regular, every-day wakeup call. </p>
<p>It’s a shame we don’t live in a world that supports you living your life the way that makes sense to you, but we don’t. There may be reasons for that, and whether or not there are good ones, it could badly mess up your life. Sorry for all the mixed messages and good luck. </p>