<p>Hi guys,</p>
<p>I am now in the second semester of my sophomore year, and I have had an absolutely terrible time at my school. Everything about it has, literally, made me sick (depression, not my chronic illness). I wanted to give it more of a chance since freshman year was riddled with family and chronic illness trouble. Additionally, I was told freshman year was a common year for people to experience depression as well, so I figured maybe sophomore year would be better.
On this campus, it's not. I cannot get anything higher than a B+ here because I am in constant disagreement with my professors and the manner of teaching. Everything here is theoretical, and I much prefer to mix theoretical learning with concrete applications. At the three other campuses in our consortium (all of which are higher ranked than my current school), I get nothing but A's and my professors adore me. I want to go to a good graduate school, but that seems impossible with my current academic situation. My school will not permit me to solely take classes at other institutions, but staying here will hinder my GPA.
Another part of the problem is that I am frequently harassed for being feminine, artistic, and Christian. Frequently, I am called an idiot for having passions in creative writing, fine art, and music instead of academia. A really rotten girl in my group of friends constantly yells at me or tries to push me away since I am one of the few people who is straight. Ever since first semester freshman year, she has belittled me and gotten plenty of people to take her side. This problem is very common among people who are straight, religious, and artistic on-campus. The girls who fit that category are in agreement with me about this problem. Furthermore, they agree that women who are typically considered minorities outside of the school use their power to hurt and marginalize in-school minorities.
I want to transfer, but I don't know if my grades will hold me back from doing so. I do not want to give up a challenging curriculum, but I want to go to a school that is more accepting of my thought patterns and my personality. If I can't transfer, I really don't know what I will do. I am barely surviving here. Any chance of going to a good graduate program will be shot if I can't leave. It feels like I'm drowning here, and I really need help! I've tried multiple things for all three semesters, but nothing's working. It's like treating an incurable disease.</p>