<p>"1. there was a period in my life where, (i won't go into self-pity and who had it worst game) but i was suicidal and go on from there into how it affected me"</p>
<p>This is potentially very dangerous to your case because Harvard or any other school you apply to will worry that you'll have another episode under the high pressure of their school, a legitimate concern considering the rising rates of college suicides. If anything, you want to keep this hidden, not make it the focal point of your essay.</p>
<p>"2. my ongoing and passionately deep (xP) love relationship of very abnormal circumstances (don't ask.. details are not necessary)"</p>
<p>This makes for great reading as a romance novel, but college admissions officers tend to find it creepy. If you do write about it, make sure it's very platonic. Also, make sure it doesn't devolve into you raving about your girlfriend. The colleges want to know about YOU, not some girl you're nuts about. Besides, it seems like you'd have much better topics to write about than this, given your comments on the affirmative action debate.</p>