overwhelming, really hard to hold on

<p>got 2 rejects in 2 days. 3 in total with only one admission. I wrote an unique essay, not excellent but definitely not a b******t, got qualified SAT, asked for no financial aid, applied for none ivy league, and pray everyday just for an admission.</p>

<p>grandpa passed away last week. </p>

<p>i cant say how hopeless i was when i heard the news. the one always with you is gone now. no more strong encouragement ever. </p>

<p>my friends around me keep telling me good news, harvard, standford, princeton, all that ranked top 10 are offering them position, with a great amount of money. me? rejected by what i though are matched colleges. they are ranked beyond 40, offering no money because i dared not to apply for. open the website, congratulations are in every thread. all not for me.</p>

<p>mom got a raise, offering her a better title in a better city. i cant tell her i am so bad for the moment just to discourage her before her new life, especially after she had done so much to support me. i feel guilty. </p>

<p>i feel terrible. dont know where i' m heading. so many things happened, and i got depressed.i can only buried the feelings in mind, and occasionally let them out in front of you guys.</p>

<p>I am so sorry about what you are feeling now. The college process is a difficult one for many kids. You say that you have one admission already. That’s terrific; focus on that instead of the denials.</p>

<p>Is there an adult in your life whom you can talk to about your feelings? If not your family, then what about a teacher or other adult friend? I would also tell you, as a parent myself, that you won’t spoil your mother’s happiness over the new job by telling her about how you feel. You say that she has done so much to support you. That is evidence of how much she loves you and would want to help you when you are feeling down, so talk to her.</p>

<p>I’m sorry to hear about your grandfather. That’s hard to handle anytime, but especially during a time of high stress.<br>
As difficult as it may be to imagine right now, your success in life will not be determined by where you go to college, but by what you do while you’re there and beyond. Make the absolute most of wherever you go, and when you go to your 10-year or 20-year high school reunion, look around. You will likely not be able to distinguish the graduate of Local State U from the grad of Top 20 College. Live your life and enjoy doing so. The rest is just details.</p>

<p>Thank you sharpenedpencil!
Thank you jcc!
i didn’ t expect any reply before since my thread was so upset…</p>

<p>sharpenedpencil, i feel better to see your replies. yeah, at least i have an admission, that means i still have the chance. it’ s really a tough time. maybe, yeah, i should talk to my mom or someone else as kind as you two. i will take your advise sharpenedpencil.</p>

<p>i was annoyed by the low- class college which i was accepted. but jcc, your word light me up. top colleges are not the only way that can help me gain success. no matter what colleges i will attend finally, i will treat it as one of the steps that i am designed to take in my life and work as hard as Harvarders do.</p>

<p>Thank you!</p>