<p>Thank you all very much for your advice. Today, I sat down and talked to my mom.</p>
<p>In the past few days, I’ve realized something very important. Similar to what nohook said: perhaps if I did achieve that 4.0, I would not be as happy as I am today. All the strange, strange events that occured since entering high school each changed me. I could not ask for a more variable, exciting high school career.</p>
<p>But most importantly, I realized that I haven’t grown up yet. Not even close. I do not know what I want, I do not know what I will major in. I cannot even decide on my own writing; if given an essay I wrote a week ago, I would scrap it completely and re-do it. This is a very, very text book example, but I think it is the clearest. I have not found myself yet. I have no idea who I am–much less where I want to go, what I want to do, or how I want to do it. </p>
<p>I told my mom that no matter where I end up, my main focus will be to enlarge my education and find what I want to do. Once I do, I will put my all into what I truly enjoy, and succeed. </p>
<p>“I can always go to an Ivy for grad school, but that isn’t my goal either.” My mom was a little bit upset, but she tried her best to understand. For anyone out there in any situation similar to mine, remember: you probably have been slacking out of boredom, or out of curiosity of “distractions.” Each one of these distractions I have faced defines me today. I am a completely different person from the slacking pseudo-studious recluse that entered high school., and I’m truly happy about that.</p>
<p>Rejection is hard to face, especially when you (arrogantly) believe you are smarter or better than most of the applicants that apply. In the last few days, I started to get over myself, and although I am not content with my performance, I am ambitious and optimistic for the future. NO matter what university you go to, if you have the drive to succeed and stay true to who you want to be, you will succeed.</p>