<p>Hi All! I, like WorkinProgress, have been away for a bit because I needed a bit of a break. After getting the call about mom’s fall, I began to get nervous when the phone rings in the morning…She recovered well from the fall - didn’t end up needing CT scan or xrays, but no walking alone outside. PT has started up several days a week, so she is happy to do the work and have the company! I guess I’m a bit lucky, because everyone loves her and thinks she is just the sweetest thing! She’s very big on, “Oh don’t mind me. I’ll be OK”. Hard to tell what she is REALLY thinking. She is on Paxil, by the way, and really likes her primary (that’s a very important relationship at this time I think) and was willing to try the meds. the hope was get on em before everything in life gets worse, and that was just in time, because it’s been downhill ever since…</p>
<p>However, now, it’s not totally true, as she is enjoying her new digs. I felt that same sense of guilt mentioned above, like I was just leaving her there at this awful place. Like I was taking her from her home. And also like what has been said, she can cover and appear more competent. That is why when assisted Liv offers to drive to Doctors appts, I would not want her to go. I need to take her to listen and remember what is said, and make any arrangements for tests or whatever. And we did not have to drag her kicking and screaming. She was reluctant for a few days, but as the weeks have gone one, she is getting more and more comfortable. She went back to her house with a good friend in hopes of bringing back some books. Turns out she didn’t feel excited or even sad to be there. She just wanted it over. That was her house with my dad and with out him, it has no meaning. So for me, it’s smoothing over a bit… and I feel very bad for those of you with many more hard times in front, and parents who are challenging to deal with. Keep being their sons and daughters! I still forget this…</p>
<p>To address the end being long and yet sudden - It is so very true. Even though you may know for days or weeks that this is the end, well… I know I wasn’t prepared for it. I couldn’t really talk to him for 3 1/2 months after his stroke, but I miss “talking” to him, really talking to him. So it was gone for months while he was alive, and now I miss it when he is gone… Such feelings I didn’t know I had. I had very, very little experience with death, and I really enjoy this thread because we are in such similar situations, and can give advice, comfort, ideas, or at the least, cyberhugs! </p>
<p>Lastly - at 9 am last friday, the call came from the Home Owners Assoc. where mom’s house is…The weather was freezing and we were told that the pipes burst and that there was water all over the house, running out of the garage and out the back of the house as well. Driving to the house to see what happened reminded me of driving to their house when I’d gotten the call that he’d had a stroke. It is so unknown, and then in a few minutes, it will all be known… What we determined was that a humidifier hose in a small utility closet, popped off and the water kept running and running… I don’t know for how long. There was SOOO much water damage…But a cleaning company came in and have been working on the drying and the repair contractor will come in Friday to estimate repair. On the bright side, it looks like almost the whole house will be repainted (all contiguous), something we needed to do anyway. Also, the carpeting needs replacing. Included!! Not anxious to clean up junk/stuff and get rid of stuff before the sale… My OWN house is full of so much crap. I don’t want to make the decisions on what to throw out. I have a hoarding nature My sister does not, so she will be like, “CHUCK it!”</p>
<p>We have an appointment with a tax/elder care attorney in Feb. Bit nervous about it. We already have POA through lawyer, and the advanced directive and health care representative (both notarized). It all worked for my dad’s stuff. No one questioned anything. But he may want to re-do stuff. What was mentioned about where to start is really the challenge. it’s like we have to write a thesis and we just don’t know how to go about it. Along with trying to be a daughter and not just a phone call maker and paper pusher. </p>
<p>Forgive me. I take Ambien to sleep and am really supposed to go straight to bed. I only took 2/3 of one… but i might not be all that clear…</p>
<p>I am so sorry Lima for the loss of your mom and jshain, for the loss of your dad.</p>