@socalmom007 Yes, I do feel it is a piece of the puzzle, although I am not sure how much anymore.
BF is a current college freshman about 45 mins from us, has not made many friends, is not involved in his campus. Is getting more and more miserable by the day. D and I talk all the time about it and have since the start of school. If she is not driving up to see him, he comes homes on the weekends to see her. They’ve been dating a year this June. My issue, he is not owning his campus and his involvement with her is part of it. How can he when half the time he isn’t there? But it falls on deaf ears. He was going to try and transfer to UD but then his first semester mid term grades weren’t where they were supposed to be. He is taking Calculus 2nd semester, needs a B+ to transfer, not going well - she is tutoring him. They both are aware that hubby and I are not fans of them attending school together. We feel that neither will get involved in campus, each own their campus and own their individual college experiences if they attend together. Now if she was through her freshman year, we’d feel different, but we want her to get in, get involved, do her freshman year, meet friends, get homesick. cry, laugh, start a new life. I’m sorry, but I feel like going to college, having that rug pulled out from under you, growing, is all part of the life cycle. Is that so wrong? They now say that he is ‘probably’ not transferring, but they talk out of both sides of their mouths. He has until May 01 to submit his application.
As a parent, I cannot tell you how miserable this whole thing is making me, my husband, my child. We came home after seeing 2 fantastic academic programs. With what she wants to do with her education, Pitt and Indiana both offer flexible programs that will allow her to create what she wants to study with her 120 credit hours for graduation. Where we felt the gen ed requirements of a structured LAC were perfect for our sons education requirements in Finance, we feel it stifles what she wants to study and how she wants to study. With S15, the possibility of graduating in 4 years in a high level business school with opportunities for job prospects were the focus. With her, she wants to go to grad school with a degree in Psychology, the focus is on being able to create the degree SHE wants in college, with fine arts, with Psychology, possibly with a foreign language and do it all in 4 years - for her the LAC requirements stifle some of that or add time on to the 4 years that will affect her ability for grad school.
A friend of mine had a very long discussion with her, she told me after that D was a true believer in this ‘feeling’ that folks talk about. She read somewhere before the college search that she would be able to see herself on a campus. Friend feels this is an emotional, like she feels she has to feel this feeling that she reads about. Well she saw herself on the first campus so bingo, feeling, it must be like that great moment - don’t look further.
These last few days, we forced her to look further. She told us tonight, she knows she can be happy at IU, she can see herself there. She knows it fulfills everything she wants academically. She knows UD does not, but she ‘wants’ to UD and cannot quantify why any more than that. She knows logically that IU is everything.
Then we proceeded into this overly emotional, bringing up the intent to commit page, blah, blah, blah.
I’m an accountant. I look at cost. I look at spreadsheets. I look at numbers. I look at results. I look at academics. I look at my kid, her personality, her likes, dislikes. She has told me time and time and time again, she wants to get away from here, she wants away from the HS mentality, she wants new, she wants fresh, she wants to create her future. I have listened to what she wants in a college, in its location, whether. Most importantly and has reoccurred time and time and time again - she wants a huge circle of friends. The vibe, the kids, the friendliness, aside from how she can mold her education versus following a set of gen ed requirements - hubby and I see her one place and she’s following some emotional, non-rational by her own admittance, ‘thing’ she read about.
I know my daughter, I have spent 18 years with her. You can tell me, let her go with the feeling, my gut tells me she will regret it, my gut tell me we have been through this so many times. But then, if we go based on what is the best place academically for her education, her future career goals, she tells me we will crush her spirit even though she admitted she knows it is best for her academically.
When we bring up gap year or local college for a year, she freaks.
This truly sucks. I wouldn’t wish this on the worst person I ever met my entire life.