<p>I'm going to be a junior in the high school after this summer, and I want to get into a good college. There's only a year left until i give out my transcript. For my first Sat practice test, i got a 1540 on it which is horrible. I felt bad for myself and felt so sry for my parents, i didn't work hard at all, and now i think it's too late. If i can't get into a good college, i will kill myself so i don't have to face everyone i knew. I have big problems with vocabulary and writing; i knew english is hard for esl students, but still, i hate english. Everyone said that im smart but im not, i knw what i am, and i just feel depression all the time. God damn it i can't image what's going to happen one year later. now i have a 3.5 gpa right now, since i have all honest classes next year, i m not worried abt that. im an athlete which showing im acitve; i do volunteering a lot, and i will be the captain for swimming team for next two years. i guess that's helpful to get into good college, but i need to improve my grade. omg sb pls tell me how, i will be very appreciate, thx so much!</p>