<p>Silly superwoman
You should have applied.
You say you could not have taken the rejection, yet you say you would never have gotten in, so what’s the difference? Nothing ventured, nothing gained - all because you did not want to say you got rejected and prefer to say you would have been rejected.
But thanks for sharing your story, and I hope others don’t follow your lead.
You might have been accepted and now you’ll never know.
Now, if you felt that if you HAD been accepted you would not have been equipped for the task of keeping up, then you were correct in pulling your app and not silly at all.
I wish you the best in your transfer plans.</p>