I just received a bachelor’s degree in Civil Engineering and I feel nothing but regret. I struggled a lot in college with what major I wanted and I thought I had that figured out, but I feel like I made the wrong decision. Computer Science was always something I thought sounded really cool and interesting, but when I started college, I didn’t try because I thought you needed to have some prior experience with coding to be successful in that major.
Over the course of my curriculum, I have had the opportunity to do some coding in MATLAB, and the courses where I got to do that were always my favorite. I also always enjoyed my math heavy courses and am really good at it, I even went up to Linear Algebra even though it was not required by my major.
I now have a degree and I have had job offers and I am not excited about them at all. I don’t want to be a civil engineer. It sounds incredibly boring and frankly, I don’t think I have the skills to do it. All I have been able to think about since I graduated is how I should have majored in CS, and my options for going back to school. I am already in a lot of debt from undergrad, and I have applied to graduate school for a Masters in Civil, focusing on structures, where I can focus my research on computational mechanics or optimization, so I would be able to integrate computer science and structural engineering.
I am just very lost on what to do right now. I am in a limbo between graduating and graduate school because I graduated in the Fall, so I can’t really accept any full-time jobs because I would possibly be leaving in 8 months to go to grad school, but I am also not sure this is even what I want to do. I really feel that I would be more excited about my future if I had studied CS, but I was so uninformed coming into college, and I just feel like I made a huge mistake.
I have turned down two full-time job offers, which I was surprised I got in the first place because for structural engineering, you typically need a masters degree. One, I don’t regret turning down at all. The pay offer was bad, it was literally across the street from my parents house, which is a huge no, and I was not excited about the company. The other one had a better pay offer, was in a location I think I could be happy in, and based on the employees I spoke with, it seemed like a great company. I have been deciding if I should call them back, take the job to have stability for now, and then figure out if I actually do like it, and if I don’t then I will have money saved up to pursue something else?
So, I guess I am just looking for advice. I feel stuck and like one wrong move is just going to have a snowball effect. I think my head is too clouded with regret and fear to clearly see what options I have at the moment. I just need a direction.