<p>I'm really having difficulties getting adjusted and I'm about finished with my second semester here. I did really well in terms of grades first semester but that doesn't tell the whole story. I don't think I've read a book cover-to-cover in several years and I can't even finish more than about 1/5 of the readings I have to do for class. I'll dedicate days to doing one thing and I won't make any progress on it. I can't even hold a conversation anymore. My room has about 3 months worth of garbage starting to pile up and I can't take it anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me but I think I should take a gap year to gather myself back together. I don't know how to get rid of my frustration; the workload is easy and I could have done it with ease if I had my 14 year old self back but for some reason I just can't do anything. </p>
<p>Have you considered going to counseling?</p>
<p>Most colleges offer it for free, as part of tuition, and I highly enourage it, along with seeing a doctor. </p>
<p>Yes, there are those who are lazy, but it doesn’t sound like that’s the case for you. What it sounds like is that you are genuinely facing a tough time, be it depression or some other condition. This is often how a thyroid condition presents itself, and while the latter is probably not the case, it’s best to look through options before casting blame on yourself. </p>
<p>Depression is a managable condition, with and sometimes without medication, and definately paired with counseling. Don’t feel weak because of this. It’s normal. It’s okay, and it does not imply anything about your intelligence, perseverance or strength. </p>
<p>I have depression, and potentially bipolar disorder. I manifest similar symptoms. If I hadn’t started seeing a counselor and if I hadn’t started medication, I would never leave the house. This isn’t something you can usually talk yourself out of or learn better time management skills. </p>
<p>Today I returned a book to the library that was due ten weeks ago even though the library is less than a football field’s distance from my dorm, but I manage to get a high GPA. You learn coping mechanisms for somethings, and learn how to mentally accept other things will slip. It is tough, but you need help from the sound of it, and college is the perfect time to get it–when you have required healthcare and you have access to counseling serves right near where you live. </p>
<p>You counseler will be able to help you learn skills to cope with management. It’s a slow process, but ultimately its worth it. I would highly enourage looking into it. At the very least, if it isn’t depression or some other mitigating condition, a counselor will be able to help you figure out skills to become more of the person you want to be. I highly suggest it. </p>
<p>Musicallylatin said it well. Please see a counselor. It might range from just missing home, making friends, or just depression activated by something you are not very aware of.
In addition, some of the things you mention would just have to be done…“COLD TURKEY”. That is you have to wake-up in the morning and say, today is Saturday, and I am cleaning my room, all your friends can wait or join you. Same thing with studying, homework, extracurriculars etc.
At the end of the day, you have to make the tough decision now or later, and hopefully later will not be too late.
Best of luck to you.</p>
<p>Also it may not be depression, but something like ADD or a executive function disorder (executive function is the part of the brain that helps you plan and determine the consequences of doing something). Definitely talk to a counselor!!</p>