Hey there, sorry if this is the wrong place to post this.
I’m from Canada. Last year, I was admitted to McGill University, one of the top Canadian universities, where I intended to study History of English Literature. I had quit my job a year before, not really knowing what to do, except that going back to university was very, very appealing (I already have a Bachelor’s Degree in Translation). My idea was to go for a BA in History or English Lit and then maybe go for a MA and a PhD in the UK or US.
But then I got cold feet.
They accepted me very late in the year, I wasn’t even expecting being admitted. That prompted a friend of mine to say they probably accepted me because they had a few free spots available and I would give them money, not because they actually thought I was a good candidate (or they would have accepted me earlier). In any case, what really made me scared is that, at age 37, that exciting plan started to crumble when I thought that I’d probably be ten years older by the time I finished my Ph.D. (if I got to finish it, that it). And I’d be a man approaching his 50s fresh from university, without relevant work experience competing with much younger recent graduates in fields of work that, by all accounts, are over-saturated. Make no mistake, I wouldn’t go into such a journey only thinking about getting a job in the end; I’d go for the opportunity, for the knowledge, for the intellectual stimulus. But let’s face it, one has to pay his/her bills, and however I looked at it I could only see myself ten years from now drowning in debt, with no perspective of ever being able to find a nice job (in academia or elsewhere) because of the gap this adventure would create.
So I declined my offer.
I found myself another job, which is basically paying the bills right now, but every now and then I see something about this or that university and I feel crushed. I go to Google and I read all the terrifying statistics about the Humanities and that sort of helps me calm down. But I know it’'s temporary because sooner or later I’ll start wondering about it again.
So I guess I would like to hear what people in a similar situation think and what they did/intend to do. People around my age or older would be nice (sorry, I understand that unis usually consider people over 21 to be mature students, but a guy who is 22 wondering if he’s too old to fit in with the 18-year-olds hardly compares to what I’m describing here).
Any thoughts and two cents are deeply appreciated. Thanks.