Realistic Or Fake

<p>I am student who is well deficient in writing(I got 8 on my SAT writing essay). So you see my problrm is that the only time I have written an excllent essay(I mean an essay that many teachers in my schooll acknowledge as good) is when i dont write from my heart. The problem is I dont feel the essays but People say they are good. Now this is where I am at a crossroad.Do I employ this method(Not writing from my heart) or do i employ what I term an essay which display my sentiments. Please advice me.</p>