<p>Just watched three episodes of BattleStar Galactica in a row (only 11 left before the end :(), and on to one more now! Checking my big countdown clock in between each episode and refreshing mail and CC to see if anything new has come up with regard to MIT.</p>
<p>Going bowling with some friends tomorrow, and three of us, including myself, applied to MIT. I want to say with almost absolute certainty that at least one of us will get in, judging from the past 4 years, but I don’t know who. After picking up one of my best friends for bowling tomorrow, I’m going to make sure that he knows that no matter what happens what we have as friends won’t change for me.</p>
<p>It’s stressful and at the same time surreal. Like all, I’ve been waiting for the day to come for what seems like years now, ever since finding out about MIT. After being accepted to UChicago EA, I was unsure as to whether or not I would choose MIT over it, but I think I’ve rediscovered my love of this great university once more. I keep telling myself that even if I don’t get in I’ll still be at a great place, and I know that I’ll love it there, but then again I can’t shake the thought that I’ll always have regret or wonder, “What if I had gone to MIT?”</p>
<p>As the day gets closer I keep vacillating between “I have a great chance” and “Crap, please, please, please don’t reject or wait list me.” I’m going to ignore modesty and while I’m on the upside train of thought say that I think I’ve done the most that I could do and that out of all those applying I ought to have the best shot. Realistically, I think that my aforementioned friend will absolutely get in, and I’m just worrying about myself.</p>
<p>Scary stuff. Trying to rationalize and internalize all of the great advice on the blogs. That it’s silly to give up on everything if you get rejected, or that the rejection reflects on you as a person. I know deep down somewhere that that is true, but I can’t find where it is. If I get rejected, I’m going to have to persuade myself to trust the Admissions staff both at MIT and at UChicago, and trust that they made the right choices. Maybe I wouldn’t fit in at MIT, maybe U of C is where it’s at.</p>
<p>14:52:40 now. Freaking out. Hopefully I’ll be able to show this to my kids when they apply, so they can see how much I was freaking out. On that same note, I have a screen video capture program that I’m going to use to capture me opening the decisions site and to capture my reaction (the audio at least).</p>
<p>I’ve also got Science Fair and a research paper competition coming up on Friday and Thursday, respectively, so this week is rather eventful. If I make it to ISEF this year then it’ll be my 5th year in a row. And if I make it into MIT today then I’ll feel a lot of pressure lifted. On the other hand wait listed would make me feel like I have to win to get off of the wait list and on the admit list. The speed with which things are coming to an end, last Science Fair, school, etc., is rather alarming and emotionally distressing to some extent too. We’ll see, we’ll see. Tomorrow all shall be revealed.</p>
<p>I suppose I’ve rambled enough here. Probably just my sleepiness. Well, off to one more (last one for tonight, maybe) episode of BSG. Thank you Jain for the opportunity to dump all of this off at CC, and I wish everybody the best of luck today!!! To quote the oh so popular rhetoric, “We’ll all end up great places. Don’t sweat a rejection!”</p>
<p>Why is it so hard to follow your own advice?</p>
<p>Good luck once again all! I hope to be able to see some of you in Boston come August :)</p>