Seriously messed up.

Look guys I’m Shubh, I’m from India, in the 12 grade. And I have just messed up my grades really bad. Let me.start from the top. It is very hard for me to talk about it but since I am really scared and no one around me knows what to do I’ll tell you the full picture. See last year just before my final exams my best friend who I had known for 13 years of my life died. I was very disturbed and as a result didn’t really do very good on my exams. Now I thought I’d manage it this year, but I think the world’s just against me. I have mid terms today and I’m sitting in the hospital with an IV up my arm right now. I don’t think I will be able to do anything in the mid terms. I’m really confused and don’t know what to do.
Just so you guys can better advise me here are some of my stats:
I took the SAT in May as a practice :1520
I’ll be taking the SAT again and also the Physics, Math & Chemistry subject tests too.
TOEFL:109
Grade in 11th grade: 6.4 on a 10 point scale.
Grade in 10th grade : 9.4 on a 10 point scale.
National level award for essay writing.
District level award for speech.
Award for project report on gemstone. (and my project got published. IDK. where, my teacher just said it did. I just have the award.)
These are somethings I have seen others tell about themselves.
I live in a small town in India so no one around me knows what to do. Please help me. Any advice is welcome. Thanks

it sounds like your health needs to take priority right now. Have you been doing well this year? Can you study while you are in the hospital? I would just continue to work hard and not stress the exams from last year. Your test scores are good and you can write a compelling essay about losing your best friend. Sorry you are stressing and for your loss. I think you need to step back and realize you haven’t ruined anything. You life may take a slightly different path, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be a great path.