A lot of the CSUs are underrated. I particularly think Humbolt is undeservedly well off the radar.
Don’t neglect your own mental health no matter where you land. We don’t come from the factory with owners manuals to help us deal with these types of issues. Don’t stuff your feelings and try to brute force your way through. It could work, but it very well could get worse. There are pros out there specifically for that.
Best of luck!