This sounds like a stupid question, I’m sure, but please offer advice. I’m a rising senior currently.
Initially I wanted to be an architect, but my drawing skills are practically nonexistent (I just started art 1 year ago) and while I love art and am drawing as much as possible, there’s no way I can scrap a portfolio together in time. My parents also don’t support me going into arch bc of the difficulty in finding any jobs after graduation. I would love to design and build structures that protect, aid, and inspire others, so I did more research and would like to go into civil or environmental engineering. My parents are more supportive of engineering bc they believe it’s a more secure career choice.
However, I struggled a lot in math and especially physics this year. I had to put a lot of time into both and while I managed to get As, I had to study more extensively than for any other subjects. I had a tutor for physics 1st sem and a tutor for math about a month before AP exams.
In physics, my teacher did not teach at all. At first I got a 66 on my 1st test and panicked a lot. Then I got a tutor and eventually just used khan academy solely to learn. My grades have obviously improved since then, but each test and lab has been a struggle with no help from the teacher at all. I used to be very bitter about my situation, but when I talked to my cousin about her physics class, she told me a similar story. Are all physics teachers really like this and will I be able to manage this level of self teaching in college? I also didn’t bother taking the AP exam bc she told me at the beginning of the year that I couldn’t manage more than a 2 and to not mess up her scores… I completely understand though because I truly suck at physics…
In Calc I couldn’t understand any of 2nd semester. I am still lost on series and polars even with the help from my tutor. I probably failed the AP exam. Also I just took the sat math II test and flunked it. I’d give the excuse that I didn’t study and my mind is in Calc mode but that doesn’t help me. I will go see my tutor this summer to raise my math score though.
Next year I’m not continuing to the next level of physics; I just can’t stomache the teacher another year and will probably not manage an A. Also the only math class I have left next year is stat. I plan on retaking Calc in college though.
I’m most worried that I simply won’t be able to handle the difficulty level. I’m willing to work hard, but if I struggled this much in high school to get an A, how will I survive college? Any advice on improving my math and physics skills would be greatly appreciated as well, thank you.