Should I sabotage my writing supplements for Ivy+S? Please advise.

With respect to what you truly seem to want out of your college experience, this reflection from then candidate, now Massachusetts governor, Charlie Baker seems apposite. When asked to take the Proust Questionnaire by the Boston Globe, he responded as follows:

Q: What is your greatest regret?

A: Not going to Hamilton College. I never really felt comfortable at Harvard.

https://www.bostonglobe.com/metro/2014/10/15/charlie-baker-takes-proust-questionnaire/p2B2GsYFIUnYnVLsZCiX3I/story.html