<p>I transferred to a much more expensive liberal arts college this semester. I'm a sophomore, majoring in computer science. The first part of the semester was fine, but ever since mid-terms it's been too much. I failed one of my exams (I'm taking 3 classes), and I'm massively behind on a 10-page paper due in a week and a half. This last week has been the longest of my entire life, and I feel so overwhelmed that I don't even have the motivation to go get food as often as I should. </p>
<p>I'm considering switching back to my last school, where I can't remember ever being remotely this worried. Am I being weak by feeling this way? Am I hurting my future if I take the easier option and study at my last school instead? </p>
<p>I'm massively depressed, I don't have any friends, and I can't even muster up the motivation to do an assignment until the night before it's due. It's so difficult to tell if I'm just lazy, or if this school is just too much for me. </p>
<p>At the same time, I feel pressure to stay here because my family was so excited for me to come here, and ask me about it all the time. I keep telling them that it's great.... but obviously that's not the truth. I feel like if I give up and return home they'll all think I failed or something, but at this point I'm scared I wont even pass all of my classes. </p>
<p>Anyone been in a similar situation? I'll take all the advice I can get. </p>
<p>Thanks for reading. </p>
<p>Talk to your family, friends or someone in the counseling center at your school, you need to reach out to someone for help and support. Your mental and physical wellness come before anything else, that should be your first concern. It’s hard to think you’ve let people down, but I guarantee you that if they know how you’re doing they won’t feel that way, they only want you to be happy and healthy.</p>
<p>If you need to, check at your school and see if you can take Ws or Incompletes for your classes and perhaps take a leave. There is no shame in returning to your old school if you were happy and productive there. Transferring isn’t always easy, you need to learn a new system that other students are already familiar with and meeting people can be difficult.</p>
<p>Take care of yourself, school will always be there.</p>
<p>I hope you have checked into any kind of tutoring services or writing centers etc. that might be available. Many liberal arts colleges provide some of these services (sometimes even a certain number of free tutoring hours!). Just a suggestion. Also, make friends with a librarian or advisor or professor who could help you to adjust to this new workload! Study groups are a GREAT resource as well. I completely understand how hard it is to feel motivated and hopeful when depression hits, and you feel so alone and worthless. But people will respect you (and you’ll respect yourself!) based on how you respond to these feelings. So please, ask for help! Reach out at your current school before throwing in the towel. You can do it! :)</p>