<p>When I was a senior in high school, I was determined to leave home and go to the college I wanted to go to. I got accepted into a lot of different colleges, but ultimately, my parents pressured me to go to college in the same city that I grew up in for 18 years because of financial reasons and they thought I wouldn't succeed if I left. It was the last college that I wanted to go to.</p>
<p>I am currently a sophomore studying petroleum engineering. But I have been unhappy about my situation. Ever since I lost all of my friends from high school, I haven't been able to find people that could replace them. I tried my freshman year to engage in campus activities by going to various meetings and campus events, introducing myself to people in my classes, and so on. But because my college is a "commuter" college, I rarely see these people elsewhere. Hence, it's been hard for me to build relationships with people when you only see them once and don't see them again. The ones that I do see again, they don't even remember me.My parents tell me I'm not trying hard enough to make this place "home" but I feel like I have done everything I could. I ALWAYS initiate the conversations; no one has ever come up to me to introduce themselves. I am the secretary of a club on campus, although we mainly just volunteer. I was on a club sports team until schoolwork caught up to me. I tried reaching out to organizations telling them that I am interested in joining their committee, but they never returned my calls. I don't know what else to do.</p>
<p>After my freshman year, all I do now my sophomore year is go to class,do homework, study, and sleep.The cycle repeats itself over and over again. Working out is the only thing that keeps my sanity. I tried talking to my next door neighbors, but they don't seem interested in talking to me. I'm just really tired of this whole thing. There are some days when I don't want to go to class because this whole process reminded me of high school: study, practice on my sports team, and sleep. It's been like this for 6 years now. I figured if these people don't want to talk to me, why should I bother wasting my energy talking to them. Now that it's winter break and finals are over, I spend the majority of my day looking outside my dorm window, wondering what could have been. Minutes, hours, days go by, and I sit there alone in my thoughts. The only person I talk to is my roommate but I only consider him like a "coworker". I don't tell him all of my thoughts, struggles, and pain. All of that is kept inside of me. I don't even look at Facebook anymore, because it kills me seeing these pictures of my former friends having fun while I am stuck here doing the same thing that I have been doing over and over. Now that my best friend from middle school has just recently transferred from my school to another school, it leaves me with no one to go to. It also made me feel like it is time to go.</p>
<p>I sacrificed everything in high school so that my college experience would be better. I skipped out on friend events and social activities just so that I could concentrate on my grades and put myself in a better position to go to the college I wanted to go to. To see that not only was I not able to go to the college I wanted to go to but also how miserable I am made me feel that everything that I did in high school was a waste of time. I could have spent more time with my friends and actually try to enjoy high school had I known that I would be stuck to where I am right now. I could work half as hard and still get into the college that I am in right now. By the end of the spring semester, I will only have 2 years of college left. I feel if I don't transfer, all those years of work I did in high school would be useless. Even though it's only 2 years, it is still 2 years left that I can salvage and try to turn things around. If not, I will never have that college experience. I am positive that a new change in scenery is needed. I'm sorry for going on this tangent, but all I am writing right now is just a short sample of how I felt over the past couple of years. Do you guys think I should transfer, or should I just spend the rest of my years at the same school. Any suggestions, criticisms, or tips will be appreciated. Thank you.</p>