<p>i hate it how my parents expect so much out of me and want me to go to stanford or some other univ. of that tier but didn't give me the "ingredients" to succeed. They just sent me to a crappy elementary school and middle school and i just slacked off and they would just yell at me when they find out my grades. but then they'd let me go home everyday (alone) and i could just play games all day and watch tv. </p>
<p>now that i'm finally aware of my ambitious nature, i can't seem to regret my past. and my parents must have no idea how to raise a kid. </p>
<p>i got like c's d's and b's in middle school but now finally have a 5.0 on my junior year (tried really hard) but still so much more of me is lacking (ec's and smartness). I feel like i could of been so much more if i was given the "juice"</p>
<p>there's nothing i can do to get where i currently want to go. i'm too far behind. I"M A JUNIOR. there's too much for me to do this year. i need to review like the MIDDLE SCHOOL BASICS and yet i'm in CALCULUS. just looking through the art of problem solving volume 1 (wow, i learned just by taking a glance)</p>
<p>edit: same thing with my past's nuturtion. dayumit! i would be so good at bball if i were taller but they never really made me drink milk. neither did my mom breastfeed me (heh) why why?</p>
<p>yeahh seriously it's not all your parents fault. A lot of people complain how when they were just in middle school their parents didnt let them watch tv and made them study and stay ahead of their game, not letting them be a kid. There is just no winning is there</p>
<p>You can't change your past and getting upset over it will not help. We have all had our moments were we have thought "If I had just tried a little bit harder, I could have _______." There's more to life than going to Stanford anyway. If you keep working and achieving at the level you want to be at, I'm sure you will be able to find a college that you will love.</p>
<p>lol...sometimes I wish I could go back to freshman year and join more clubs, and take an ALL advanced/AP courseload...<em>sigh</em>...instead I waited until junior year...I blame myself for it though, not my parents...</p>
<p>Total freedom and total responsibility. Tough break, kid.
Ultimately it's not your parents who motivate you, you do. So you're finally aware of your ambitious nature? Go be ambitious. A lot of people wish they had been committed to something for years, and the only thing they can do is to commit themselves now. If you think of your life as a race, you're going to be very disappointed. There will always be people smarter and more ambitious and further ahead than you, and the same would be true even if you had been raised to be a superachiever. If you're only racing against yourself, then you're on the right track. A 5.00 junior year? You've found that you can do what you try hard at. If you need to review the basics, then do that, take a 13th year if you need to. You don't have to race against any standards. From this point on it's about living as well as you can, and doing what you can now.</p>
<p>wow, u guys just made a LOT of sense. thanks so much. </p>
<p>i know i was just pouting but i need these words to keep me up. everyone needs support. </p>
<p>all these ideals, i've heard of, and yet it seems like i just start to understand.
it's now like a test of how i can implement these ideals. it's the HARDEST thing to do but makes the MOST DIFFERENCE.</p>