Sleep? What sleep?

<p>Right. It's currently 1am- Wednesday December 14th... and I'm full of energy. The adrenaline is on max and the anxiety is keeping me pumped.</p>

<p>There's a battle in my head- between logic which tells me I will be defferred and rejected and my essence that tells me there's a chance I will get a fat letter.</p>

<p>After 7 hours of work, 2 hours of rugby, 1 hour of sex, and a cold shower- I still don't feel tired. I don't feel the mood for anything either.</p>

<p>I am a wreck. If i don't get in ... I'll probably die of sleep deprivation (is that possible?) by the time RD stuff comes out :(</p>

<p>its 10 someting am in newjersey. 13 th decmeber. </p>

<p>also yess one can die of sleep deprivation.
also i am so jealous you got to have sex. i wish i had someone to do me when i this stressed out ;)</p>

<p>lucky kjoodles!!
have you heard about email notifications for int'ls? you email them saying that you are an int'l and they wil put you on queue for the email notification. i know it's kinda sad receiving 'deferred' in an email but year...thats better than waiting til monday!</p>

<p>I take email less personally then real mails, so for me, email of deferral would give me less shock than a letter.</p>

<p>I don't really care about the medium... except phone that is right out. However, I don't like the idea of deferral. To be honest, I would rather be rejected straight up than have them tell me in 4 1/2 months or so... That would really drive me crazy...</p>