<p>...Because I repeatedly have thoughts that are crazy and not like myself (weird thoughts about opposite sex--I am not straight--that are disturbing,) weird worries that take years to get rid of, have to erase and rewrite things like 10 times or I go insane, spin around on the platform between two stair sets or else I can't live, land on my right foot when landing on the floor from the steps...among many other things...</p>
<p>It sounds like typical OCD symptoms. I have it, and so does my sister. I've been taking a drug called Paxil for it for over three years now. I'm never completely free of OCD, but I'm a damn sight better. The things I used to worry about, obsess over until I was sick, my daily "rituals" (believe it or not, I used to do the stair thing as well!)... gone, pretty much. I can actually laugh about it these days.</p>
<p>Just schedule an appointment with your doctor, honestly tell him/her what you're experiencing (they hear it more than you might think), and they'll diagnose it. OCD is very common and highly treatable. </p>