<p>...and by the looks of it, there's very little chance of passing.</p>
<p>If you've been active on this forum, you've probably seen some of my posts. If you want context, look here: <a href="http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/college-life/1404827-so-i-just-failed-midterm.html%5B/url%5D">http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/college-life/1404827-so-i-just-failed-midterm.html</a>
and here: <a href="http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/college-life/1412061-three-months-really-bad-experience.html%5B/url%5D">http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/college-life/1412061-three-months-really-bad-experience.html</a></p>
<p>The situation is, I took a second midterm yesterday, probably answered less than half the questions, and walked out of the lecture hall feeling like I'd just gone twelve rounds with Pacquiao. Suffice to say, I know a failed, even with a curve, and it was a pretty significant portion of my grade.</p>
<p>Did I study? Yes. I did the reading, did the practice problems, got pretty far along in the project we've been working on, and even singlehandedly organized a study group to go over the subject on the night before the exam.</p>
<p>The class is a 300 level Comp Sci class meant for Comp Sci majors and Mechanical Engineers that I was told was an Intro class. I'd never taken any programing previously, whereas many of my classmates have, and was hoping to get a sense for it in this class. Bad idea. I don't even dislike programming, but it's very apparent I'm not operating at the level expected. And I'll be the first one to say there's no excuses--it's my fault.</p>
<p>I seriously feel like throwing up, and it's basically been one constant stomach ache since yesterday. I'm angry at the school for setting a freshman genetics major up with this class and not warning him, I'm upset because I let my parents down (and they're the ones basically paying for my schooling), but mostly, I'm angry at myself for doing so poorly and not achieving what I set out to do. I mean, I essentially do nothing except school work. I have no job right now, I don't really have any real responsibilities, and I've never "partied" in my life. I had ONE THING to accomplish and I failed.</p>
<p>I don't think I'm a dumb person, you guys. I am the classical CC kid--self-motivated, valedictorian, 97+ percentile ACT score, self-studied APs, state-qualified athlete. I came here as a Genetics major with prehealth or grad school hopes, and already it looks like those have been trashed. This first semester of college has been a complete reversal of fortunes. </p>
<p>And not to be a drama queen or anything, but I even welled up a little as I typed this, haha. It's just that I asking myself, "where do I go from here?" There's bad and then there's really bad, and my situation seems really, really bad.</p>
<p>What do I do, you guys? I have other midterms coming up before Thanksgiving, but at this point I'm so defeated I don't know if I can get enthused about the material. It just seems like a really dire situation, and as if I should already be thinking about plan B--dropping out and getting a job.</p>