<p>The schools and names of this story have been changed</p>
<p>So. I was on CC last year as a super active member and really into finding the "right fit" school for me. I applied to 4 schools (as a repeat freshman) and got into two, got wait listed at one, and got rejected by one. I really liked the two i got into, even though i really wanted to go to the one i was wait listed at. Out of the two i was accepted to, one of them was single sex. I went to both revisit days, did my thing, and i decided to go to the all girls school. I really didn't like the idea of no boys but I felt more comfortable there. It was closer to my home and I really liked the campus and the overall vibe. Lets pretend that I'm at Emma Willard.
Now, I decided to apply to schools as a repeat freshman. I was young for my grade (born in August) so by redoing freshman year, I was in a better position socially and academically.
I've been at EWS for a month now and I'm going out of my mind. I hate not seeing boys and the girls here are extremely exclusive and not at all like me or any of my "go with the flow" old friends. Most of them are a year younger than me and seem so immature and petty. The two groups of "friends" that I made when I first got here all like eachother more than they like me and I always feel like the odd one out no matter where I am. I'm not comfortable here at all and I had my 1st breakdown last night. I feel like I've made a terrible mistake. I can't stand the position i put myself in.
After talking to my parents on the phone, they gave me two options. I can either finish out the year at EWS and then come home and spend the rest high school at the one i left (awkwardly being in a grade lower than all my friends) or i can stay put where i am. I dont know whether this situation is going to get better or not, but I think once I explain to my parents that i am NOT happy at either of the two, they'll allow me to reapply.</p>
<p>I interviewed (but didn't apply) to Loomis and I regret it. I'm also interested in the school that I got into but didnt go to (Blair). I may consider applying to middlesex or mercersburg. These are really the only three I'd consider reapplying to.</p>
<p>If I was accepted into a school last season, would my application still be good this one? Do I have to redo everything? Would my chances be hurt at Loomis where I was interviewed but never applied? Would my chances be hurt for college when they've seen I've been to 3 different high schools?</p>
<p>I'm sorry that things are not going your way. It's still early so your situation may change. As I remember, you are very involved in a winter sport. You may feel more comfortable once your sport begins because team friendships can be strong. After reading your post, it sounds like your parents would like you to give EWS more chances. You said you felt comfortable there when you visited, so maybe there are aspects of this school that suit you. I'm sure you miss your old friends. </p>
<p>I suspect that you will need to re-do your application, but Blair Admissions can confirm that. Ryan Pagatto is the new Dean of Admissions; he was on a leave of absence last year doing graduate work. As far as Loomis goes, people interview and then don't apply all the time. Just give them a good reason for your change of heart. They are used to teenagers changing! You might try again at the school that waitlisted you. Did you ever consider Westminster?</p>
<p>As far as colleges go, they will only see the transcript from EWS and your second high school if you transfer. I don't think you will have to send them your 9th grade transcript from your public school.</p>
<p>I'm just so tense here. All the time. I probably wont reapply to my waitlist last year.
I toured and interviewed at westminster. It seemed too generic.
I'm definitely going co-ed this time. I wouldn't stand for any more all-girls schools.
So. Right now I'm looking at loomis and middlesex (?) and maybe blair. I want to add one more. I dont know where to start, I thought I was done with all of this...</p>
<p>i agree with the post two above. 99% of my friends are from sports or other activities i do. i would not feel comfortable socially had i not met them on the sports field. give it some time and good luck!</p>
<p>The school year has just started. I sound very old saying this, but at my age, hardly any time has passed since you began your time at bs. Let's think of the basics. Are you getting enough sleep? Are you eating a sensible diet, with protein, vegetables, fruit, calcium, carbs, and ice cream? Are you getting enough exercise, if only as a method to reduce stress? It may help if you get involved in groups with a greater age range of students. If possible, perhaps some community service opportunities, in which you are not limited to campus.</p>
<p>I recommend you seek out an adult at your school, preferably an experienced teacher or counselor. I am concerned about your use of the word "breakdown," and I think you should reach out for support. A minister or rabbi, even if you aren't religious, can be a great help. I'm sure all of us who post at CC wish you the best, but our input is limited. At a minimum, he or she will have known other girls who have had trouble finding her niche. </p>
<p>I believe, if you do decide to apply out, you will need your school's support. Whatever you decide, remember that you have been very daring and brave, to choose to leave your friends and home to pursue the independence and opportunity of a boarding school career.</p>
<p>I sleep. I hit the gym 3 x a week with my "friends". I eat healthily and have energy to some degree. I'm also volunteering tomorrow for community service. All those bases are covered.
...and my "breakdown" consisted of me crying on the phone for two hours to my best friend, mom, and sister.
Yes I've only been here for a month but I just want to do this in case. If I become the happy girl I imagined myself to be while applying the 1st time around then that would be fantastic. If I still feel this way by January, where does that leave me? Stuck.
I just feel like I need to do this. Of course, I have tons of questions.
If I apply out then its sure to be awkward, isn't it? How can I get past that?
I AM brave. I AM strong. I AM pretty sure that EWS isn't where I'm meant to be.</p>
<p>Everybody has a hard time the first term; everybody feel they have not friends or are at the wrong school. Just stick with it; make friends; join some clubs, reach out.</p>
<p>Why do we keep bumping this thread. I’ve wanted to know what happened since October, forgot about it, remembered from the bumping, forgot again, remembered again, forgot, now remembered again.</p>
<p>Hopefully bumbleb’s having a good time. I’ve heard winter months are a drag though, in freshman year. The beginning can either be chaotically fun or chaotically dramatic, but they’re chaotic. Then winter sort of transitions to the dull normality that no human is truly immune to.</p>
<p>I would stick with your school now. Try to work yourself into some groups of girls. If you decide that you absolutely cannot stand being at this school, then I would reccomend returning to your public high school and finishing up there. The people at BS are always going to be pretty exclusive. If you went to Loomis, Blair, or MX, you’re just going to find yourself in a similar predicament.</p>