<p>Hey guys,</p>
<p>I've been a top student through high school (with good ECs too) and have now finished applying to several top schools (Ivies, etc.). I've always been engaged in my life and have never felt lonely or depressed.</p>
<p>This is my Senior year (second semester), and now that my college apps are over, I feel a strange mixture of depression, confusion, and purposelessness. I want to maintain my grades (I'm currently Vale or Salu), but I can't find the motivation and my life seems purposeless. I enjoy my ECs, such as music and Mock Trial, but can't put in as much time in them as I'd like because of school work...I have 7 APs.</p>
<p>I feel like I want to hang out with friends. I feel that I need a girlfriend or someone who I can share everything with and turn to for emotional support. I feel that something in my life is empty, and it's haunting me. I've been a robot, churning out grades and awards, and although I have made a lot of friends this year, I regret not being sociable throughout HS.</p>
<p>If anyone has suggestions on how to deal with this, I'd find it comforting. Has anyone gone through something similar? I hope I can find good friends (and maybe even a relationship with someone) when I head off to a college (hopefully, a good university). In any case, how feasible are college relationships? HS relationships are often dramatic, inflated, and superficial, and I'm not sure how much things will change in college.</p>
<p>Thanks a lot guys.</p>