<p>I got studied hard/got lucky with the SAT and got a 2380. At first I felt like I was ready to apply to places like Harvard EA, MIT EA, Princeton, Yale, etc. After all, I have competitive stuff like club presidencies, research, science fair awards, orchestral stuff, various whatever, on top of good GPA, SAT IIs, and APs. I'm asian by the way.</p>
<p>However, now that my excitement has died down from finally getting a good SAT score, I realize that I still won't apply Harvard EA. MIT EA, princeton etc, or if I do, I won't apply with confidence, even though my credentials (or at least my #s) far exceed their average. It's not just a feeling either - from my fairly good public school's Naviance, nobody has gotten into schools with my #s. Maybe one or two, but they most likely were not Asian and they may have had legacy. My public school, while good, simply does not send kids with high scores to good schools (and I know that good scores =/= acceptance). My only solid shot is at a place like ED Upenn, where the ED gives me a huge boost. I know that I have a chance of being rejected from ALL the top schools (HYPSM), despite being seemingly qualified from all of them. </p>
<p>Why is this? If I were black, would I get into all of them? If I had gone to some rich private school with no AP classes that sends more than half its class to ivies, would I be able to get in with even lower stats? If I had some sort of legacy, would I suddenly be set and have a fighting chance? </p>
<p>Suddenly I realize that all my hard work, well, it didn't mean too much. I don't mean to say I regret it - I wish I had worked harder at some points. But being an asian male from a regular public school and no hooks whatsoever - I know I don't have much of a solid chance at HYPSM. It makes me feel like things out of my control are weighed way too much. I'm the only person applying to Penn ED without legacy from my school (I live in PA) and that's asian, and I have the highest stats out of all of them (objectively and subjectively). If I get rejected and they get in, what should I think?</p>
<p>Now, I feel slightly bitter but I can't do anything about it. I'm the least asian kid I know besides the focus on academics (should this be viewed as a negative asian quality..?). I can't even use chopsticks, and I can't speak my native language lol. I'm 'whitewashed' so to speak (not really by choice, but I simply am who I am). Now I'm grouped into an asian demographic that has a tough chance at colleges. Is this right? </p>
<p>Anyways, wrote this in a stream of conciousness style after reading one of the many AA threads and thinking about the private schools that send 40-60% of their kids to Ivies when their NMSF rate is similar to my schools' (which sends like 5-7 kids to ivies/300 kids). What do you all think?</p>