<pre><code> So I'm a "smart" student...I think. In APUSH and Language Arts I generally do well and if I don't, I know exactly what I did wrong or I simply didn't read/study early/well enough.
In Gifted Precalculus and AP Physics 1, it's a totally different story. I struggle in both classes and I generally have no idea what I'm doing. For example, in AP Physics we had a test and enough people did poorly on it, so we got a retest(1 to 3 a semester I think). I came out of the retest feeling like I failed it again. This is so annoying for me because I think I like physics, at least more than chemistry last year, and I want to do well. Additionally, in Precalc, I'm doing poorly and I feel slower than the students around me. I think, based on my experiences in that class, my foundation is weaker than that of my peers. How do I deal with this?
Another thing that makes this whole situation quite infuriating is that I want to do computer science and I want to go to a GOOD engineering school for it, specifically MIT(ya it's a reach i know). I could be mediocre and get a cs degree from an ok school, but that's not good enough for me. I'm in Science nat'l honor society, which I'm unsure of how I got into, given my grades last year. I'm also in a STEM+arts program and all the people in it are "math/science inclined" so, naturally, I feel inadequate and, to be frank, dumb around my peers in this program and snhs. I also participate in robotics and, again, feel inadequate around my peers in there, as a result of my lack of math/science proficiency. With almost failing grades in these classes...a STEM future sounds like a joke.
So what should I do? Tutors are expensive and I've noticed that practice practice practice is the motto of these types of classes but...time, I'm doing so much. Still, I will try to increase the practice I do. I would still like advice, of course.
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<p>PS - How do I do balance...I'm doing 4 APs(2 self), an online class(spanish 3 so...easyish i guess), robotics club( time eater #1), SAT(haven't started studying and I'm taking December), volunteer hours...junior year is KILLING me</p>