This year is my fourth year in college, three and half years in cc and one semester at a four year university which I evidently dropped out of. Anyone would think by now I should had figured out my major by now, considering the MANY different courses I have taken over the years ranging from art to computer to business to kinesiology, etc.
And yet, I’m sitting here, thinking about how much I hate my current major (Accounting) that I can’t comprehend and I feel like I’m wasting money on classes I don’t really retain any knowledge of. I still feel like I’m still undecided and stuck back to when I was trying to apply for colleges as an incoming freshman.
I don’t really know what to do at this point. I’m feeling convinced that I might have some learning disorder (adhd possibly - counselor thinks so), and it doesn’t help that with my disability, it’s still difficult to learn in school, even with the disability program supporting my back. I can’t afford to see a therapist to confirm though, because it’s ridiculous in the Bay Area. I’m starting to think maybe school isn’t for me, but then I feel like I’m behind in the stupid societal expectation of “everyone must go to college and get degree” mentality.
Have you been in to see the career center to help narrow down fields of interest? Can some of your classes be used to major in something else? Go to your advisor again. Find out what your options are. The advisor might also be able to help you find the means to get tested. Good luck.
Why 3.5 years for CC? A 4 year college will be quite a change (as you have found out) from a CC.
What DO you like to do?
I might suggest taking some time off to figure out what you like and what you are good at. College may not be the path for you. Skilled tradespeople are always in demand and can be a satisfying career. You can always go back to college once you figure out the direction you want to take.
If you want a degree, you can drag hard and finish your BA in something, doesn’t have to be in accounting and doesn’t have to be a high GPA.
If not then you have an associate degree. Go join workforce for a year or two. You may feel more clear about what you want to do.
You are young, break the cycle and then reevaluate with more maturity. Don’t worry about societal expectations.
Meanwhile, do get tested for learning disabilities so you know if it’s just that or do you just lack motivation or required academic skills. It can be a mental health issue too so rule that out as well. You don’t want to start another bad cycle.