<p>Hi, I go to the University of Massachusetts. Im a freshman and I am on the track and field team. So far this has been very stressful. I have constant panic attacks, im not happy here. My grades are showing it. This environment is very hard for me to learn in. I do not do well in very test based, large lectures. I also do not think what I want to pursue is available here. My mom is supportive in me coming home, going to community college for a semester and figuring out what i want to do. My brother says i should stick it out. I do not know what to do.
Please advice is welcomed.</p>
<p>i was in the same situation you were once in as well. Honestly, the only person that should care what you do is you. i left the college i was at and came home, I didn’t even finish the semester because I was so stressed out and uncomfortable.coming home was rough bc people would ask if i was home for the weekend. I couldn’t bring myself to tell them i had dropped out of my college. However, once i said it a couple of times to my family friends i felt a lot better. i did a semester at my local community college and in the mean time did some research on different schools. i am now in a different 4 year college and i love it here! A lot of people come home after a semester or a year or even 2 years, trust me. I have heard a lot of stories of people from my high school who went away to college and now attend community college until they figure things out. I feel like my decision to come home was the best for me. The school I was at was very overwhelming and competitive. the students were very rude and everyone wanted to be the best and felt happy to see others fail. i had panic attacks as well. I decided enough was enough and came home. You should finish your semester at Mass., so your credits can transfer and then really think about it during your winter break.Don’t worry what others think, it happens and it is totally normal.I wish you the best of luck! Hang in there, winter break is around the corner :)</p>
<p>I went to PSU for a semester and knew it wasn’t for me… Came home for a semester and did CC and then transferred to a different 4 year uni where I’m happy (but stoked to graduate in may)!</p>
<p>It was 110% better for my mental well being. The only thing that sucks is order transcripts ;)</p>
<p>Something to consider is that merit scholarships for transfer students are next to non-existent, so if you rely on one you might want to strongly consider staying put. If that isn’t an issue it sounds like you should go home, and it sounds like you might need to regardless. You can’t do well when you’re having panic attacks like that.</p>
<p>my gut would say you just need a medical leave to give you time to address your panic attacks (i.e. go to therapy) and then return to UMass, but if you don’t think UMass can offer you what you need or you genuinely think that even without panic attacks you wouldn’t enjoy being there then a transfer is reasonable. I would try to transfer to another 4 year school and not do any community college.</p>