<p>I have school tomorrow, and the only thing I'm excited about is that I'll finally be able to eat some fries for lunch (our school lunches are usually pretty good lol).</p>
<p>It's like, I'd rather study for my AP exams at home than work at school. I can see my friends literally whenever I want to, so I'm not going to school for that. Running in cold weather was never fun, so track practice isn't a good reason either...</p>
<p>There is no point in going to school tomorrow.</p>
<p>A. I just can't stand AP Euro. I always say I'm actually going to do the reading on time and I never once have. I'm always so far behind in that class and then the night before the test I kill myself and am up till like 2 am and I'm just barely squeaking by getting a B+, which thank God is weighted as an A-.</p>
<p>B. I joined a new swim team this year that is intense and really hard so I've been stopping periodically in practice to take a few 45 second breaks which my coach during the week hasn't had a problem with. I tore my rotator cuff recently so I've had to stop more. My Saturday coach is really nice so the when I came into practice I told her I'd need to stop when my shoulder hurt. So then at the end of the set she told me I needed to "stop stopping" so I reminded her of my injury. She then said, "yeah, but it's not fair to the other swimmers that you get to stop." That made me so angry because IT'S ALSO "NOT FAIR" THAT I GOT INJURED. She then proceeded to tell me that my injury will heal. <em>Sorry, this just really sent me over the edge</em></p>
<p>i haven't started my research paper due tomorrow. we've had over a month to write it. no worries my teacher gave us a template that basically turned the paper into a pseudo ad-lib. southern schools ftw!</p>
<p>baby pandas are cute but the white snowy things up north are cuter (forgot their name, sorry) i don't know how to explain the admission officers about me failing. it's not because im stupid.. well in math i am but atleast i admit that</p>
<p>are we still ranting? because i would like to say:</p>
<p>i hate how my english teacher says i improved yet gives me a B in the class. i hate how i always feel just a little bit more stupid and isolated then everyone else. i hate how one of the guys i thought was my friend only talks to me just to flirt with me. i hate how i'm stuck in spanish even though i hate the language. i hate how i can't go to a top school b/c my parents wouldn't let me apply b/c they thought i wasn't good enough. i hate how i got deferred from the best instate school, especially when everyone thought i was good enough to get in. i hate how i have no plans to do anything besides what my parents want me to do. i hate having no control, i want to get out but i don't know what to do, my cousins are all trying to tell me that getting into a prestigious school isn't worth a lot even though most of them graduated from ivies. i hate that one cousin keeps trying to tell me to go to one state school even though i dont' really want to go there. and i hate how insecure i always feel, no matter what i do.<br>
school's starting tomorrow.. and i'm so not ready.
oh, and i wish i didn't care that my calculus teacher picks favorites and i'm not one of his favs. </p>
<p>btw, i think pandas are adorable. i also have this strange love for pugs and french bulldogs..i just think they're so darn cute! for a long time i was gonna have a pug named chess. (apparently i'm ADD b/c here i was ranting and now i'm going on about cute pets.)
i'll go now, and stop embarrassing myself. :)</p>