<p>those thoughts seem a little carried away. sounds to me like you just need * someone* and some experiences. then those longing thoughts won’t occupy you anymore hopefully (though maybe they will be replaced by other thoughts).</p>
<p>i do relate to the part about thinking about all the lives going around you, of the people you know and don’t know, and you just being one of these humans on a patch of earth, waiting at the bus stop or in class or whatever, but none of that ‘one-in-a-million person for you’ part.</p>
<p>the best companions we could hope for are probably neither so perfect or so rare. the ideal(?) or romantic notion that perfect has to be rare or something just seems wrong to me.</p>