<p>I know the grades wont kill me, and sarorah actually Im bored of school too..haha im barely studying for all my tests tomorrow..I'll just study in lunch.</p>
<p>but damn i HATE high school. its soooooo boring. i have no <em>real</em> friends I feel because I had a HUMONGOUS fight with my best friend of like 5 years and now I refuse to hang out with her after what she did to me...she doesn't deserve me as a friend. and now senior year is my most BORING YEAR EVER. I have nothing to do or people to hang out with...well I do but I dont have a car! I can't drive, parents are never home, and only a few of my friends can drive or have a car, and those are the ones that are boring and I dont wanna hang out with them. In conclusion SENIOR YEAR SUCKS AND I HAVE NO LIFE.</p>
<p>celebrian, I think it's quite possible to die from stress at age 17;) Really, I woudn't be surprised if I had more gray hairs than my mother ........exaggerating a bit, but you get my point.</p>
<p>I'm extremely, horribly, over -the-top stressed right now. Every night, I go to bed at 1 or 2, and even then I can't get a good night's sleep. I either wake up doing calc derivatives in my head, or I have nightmares about college rejections and dreams about acceptances.</p>
<p>I had an AP Euro and AP Calc test today, so I studied like crazy for calc last night. This morning, in those werid moments of consciousness, I was actually doing implicit differentiation in my head! This is not good.........</p>
<p>In terms of social life, I love senior year! I'm having so much fun with friends, and talking to a lot of nice seniors that I'd never known before. In my study hall, me and a bunch of friends all cram in a car and go to the local Wawa for coffee and donuts.........coffee is the only thing keeping me awake and coherent right now.</p>
<p>So, social life is nice, STRESS is Humongous, and classes are impossibly hard.</p>
<p>It's weird because earlier (like august-early september) I was like just one more year! and now I'm like Oh my gosh an entire year left! I dream about getting problems wrong on tests, I dream about forgetting the product rule right before my calc test, i dream i suddenly don't know how to add 2+2 without my calculator. It's so horrid in a way, this school year. ECs, home, college (and everything that goes with that), school. The only good thing is socially things are better than they've been in a long time, but it's pretty much the only thing. I feel like someone flushed me down a toilet- it doesn't matter how much I try to get out, I'm getting sucked to the bottom anyways</p>
<p>This is a little off topic, since this will probably not be a stress reliever in the loosest sense of the word, but here's my question:</p>
<p>I'm rewriting my pg. 217 essay for Penn and I'm going to write about my grandmother's Alzheimer's and how it has changed my perspective in life. I'm sure it may sound cliche, but it has been a motivating thing for me, especially since she has lived with us (in our house) ever since I was born until I was in middle school. I realized my original pg. 217 essay sounded too much like what I thought Penn wanted to hear, but I know now that this is what I have to say. Any thoughts?</p>
<p>My old topic was really pretty stupid. It was me eating lunch with a different group of friends one day. (Basically trying to socialize and come out of my comfort zone) It's really corny now that I think of it, and I'm not sure what I was thinking when I wrote it.</p>
<p>However, I can't really go on and on about my new topic. It's just really general stuff and how it motivated me, yada yada yada.. I'm going to have consult with my friend about this tomorrow.. ahh!</p>
<p>Do you think it would be weird to write about how it was embarrassing for me as a child to have parents that had crappy jobs (dry cleaning store), when other kids' parents were professionals in offices and stuff? Just need an opinion!</p>
<p>but my god, how do you write the why upenn essay. why am i a good match for penn? no idea.</p>
<p>is it appropriate to... take chances with this why penn essay? as in like, putting in creative/catchy things, like a catchy beginning? or just make it flat-out serious formal tone showing your dedication and blah blah.</p>
<p>I feel like my Why Penn really shows how badly I want Penn, and how I really belong there, but the pg. 217 is killing me!</p>
<p>It's not that I don't have a topic, it's just so hard to condense such a significant event of your life (in my case) into one short page, all the while being creative, and serious, and revealing about yourself.</p>
<p>I feel like I'm in a haze........just floating through class, through the days, without any sleep. To celebrate handing in my Penn App, I'm going to go into hibernation for 1 week.</p>
<p>I've been going back and forth on my risk essay. I think it's too cliche, and not written well enough that it doesn't matter. I think I just need to totally trash it and start from scratch</p>
<p>I noticed my original essay was more of "what I think the adcoms want to hear" as opposed to what I want them to hear. I'm rewriting it now, and I'm going to make sure to make it impressionable and not necessarily what adcoms want to hear (or read). Good luck!</p>