<p>Well.. now that the applications are in I thought I would feel relaxed, but in reality.. I'm quite anxious. I've also started the bad trend of daydreaming and feeling hopeful that I'll get into my first choice school (American University)... but I should be safeguarding against the extreme pain that will ensue if I do, in fact, get rejected! </p>
<p>Is anyone feeling my conflict? The rollercoaster of.. "will I get in? Yes, I'll get in! Wait.. but what if I don't... No, I definitely won't get in! I don't have a chance... but what if I DO get in..?" </p>
<p>I'm not stressing. I'm to busy with band and theatre. I have my band trip in the middle of May and I keep thinking, "Wow. I'll know what college I'm going to by then"</p>
<p>There is obviously that tinge of anxiety! I keep having the same thought time and time again but, I just wanna know the decision. April seems so far away!</p>
<p>Im stressing/day dreaming a fair bit too. For me it's the last second "wow, I really don't think I'll be happy unless I get into <em>insert any school I applied to where my chances are less than 60%</em></p>
<p>But like proud, swimming is going to take me all the way though mid march. By feb 20th I'll be so focused on that I'm hoping everything will fly by.</p>
<p>Ever since I turned in 13 appications, my life took a Triple U-turn. I applied to my first ever job; I play an online game(and I don't even play computer games okay?); and I refuse to attend school regularly</p>
<p>it feels so good to dream about getting in. but i know the more i dream, the more obsessed i become and the harder it will be to accept a rejection if it comes. </p>
<p>so i have to constantly snap out of it and tell myself that "X", "Y", and "Z" are all great schools as well and i will be happy to get into any of them.</p>