<p>Its amazing just how debilitating this wait has been. It is so difficult to bring myself to do homework or other applications when I have my Cornell admissions decision lingering. Them moving it back to December 20th was like a punch to the gut, and I just can not imagine what it will be like if I am rejected (this is not to say I expect to get in..just the opposite, what I am saying is that even though I expect to get rejected or deferred I do not know how I will react). After all of this effort put into an application and emotional effort wasted over this waiting period it would be very difficult to face all my friends and family who all know I applied to Cornell and expect me to get in (I do not know where they get this...I fall right in the middle of the range, in NO way should I even be close to being "expected" to get in) and tell them that I was rejected, and then have to finish all my other applications and then wait another several months for those results. I am supposed to leave on the 20th to go visit my grandparents out of town. They have verrrrrrrry high expectations for me in regard to getting in to amazing schools, since the date was moved back, it will be extremely awkward if I find out I got rejected while I sitting at their house on their computer. Plus it will make the rest of the trip terrible, as I do not always look forward to sitting around my grandparents house for three days especially after being rejected from my top school. ugggghhhh. Then again, if I get in, everything will be great. ha.</p>
<p>Thanks for just writing out my life story. We are all in the same shoes right now.</p>
<p>lol I got lucky cuz I didn't ED anywhere but instead did a ton of EAs to my fits so that I could get them behind me. Then I did regular to all my big reaches. That way I had all acceptances for the months awaiting RD which was nice haha</p>
<p>That was a great idea, was Cornell your top choice all along though?</p>
<p>story of my life as well.
except im leaving to the dominican republic on december 15th.
so somewhere, halfway through my vacation, i will probably find out that i am NOT going to cornell :(
and my family will all know within 2 hours. and my friends will know within a week. and the whole school will know within a month. GREAT.</p>
<p>yup...it is not like kids in my grade will mock me, they will all be nice and apologize etc, but at my school (small, competitive prep school) we all have very high expectations for eachother and it will just be awkward in general.</p>
<p>oh...
I might as well have a X marked on a Cornell sweater and wear it on the 20th. Just to tell the world so they'll stop asking.</p>