<p>As I'm a fan of keeping all my bases covered, I just finished registering for my classes at my current school for next semester. So bizarre. </p>
<p>I have no idea where on god's green earth I'll be next year, let alone if I'll be here, so I don't really care about what classes I'm signed up for. Then, of course, I get hit with the nagging irrational fear that if I don't worry about it enough, the powers that be will go "Aha!" and smite me with being stuck here with a schedule I loathe. And then I start wondering about transferring and how registering for classes will work then, and if I'll end up with more problems due to transferring than if I just settled down, sucked it up like a normal person and toughed it out here.</p>
<p>So, now that I've proven that I should be under close psychiatric supervision, I ask if anyone else has had moments of extreme weird you'd care to share?</p>
<p>Absolutely… I work as an overnight hosting intern, and I constantly get parents and prospective students asking me why I came here, what I love about it… totally surreal and really uncomfortable haha. And yeah, registration for classes has been like picturing myself in an alternate but totally parallel reality, the possibilities and intricacies of which I haven’t even sat down to consider yet… if that makes any sense at all.</p>
<p>@linala: I hope you aren’t clinically insane - what you described is just about my entire thought process - which would make me insane. And I don’t like padded walls.</p>
<p>I have an internship on campus & they keep dropping hints about these great programs/connections I could use. I’m supposed to help take over an organization next semester…I have to register for classes, think about doing research if I’m here, all this stuff that’s going to get interrupted if I have to transfer. But I want to transfer so badly!</p>
<p>I know! I’ll be talking with someone and get kind of excited for some plan, class, or event and then realize … wait, I won’t be here next year. I want to transfer desperately, but it really is such a unique situation in which to be.</p>
<p>At my TA meeting he was asking who was going to be doing it again next semester, and I was asked why not and had to say the transferring thing. Very awkward because then he asked me why I was transferring and I had to deflect it to tell him later in private lol.</p>
<p>I’m asking my GSI and profs to sign off my midterm grades…halfway through the form, it’s been extremely awkward. They look at me and ask with a suddenly concerned look: “wait, transferring out of the SCHOOL?! …is anything wrong?” Ahahahahaha. I couldn’t explain right there and then - I can’t believe how touchy I still am about the issue. I’m not even sure if I would transfer if I get the chance. :(</p>
<p>I thought my teachers would try to convince me to stay but they seemed to encourage me in the end!
It made getting my forms signed less of a hassle that way lol.</p>
<p>Right so…this morning the director of the institute I intern for invited me to return for next fall and even next spring if I wanted. In fact the position would go from being nonpaid (now) to being compensated with a stipend.($1,000/semester) Its a great opportunity, its a policy institute so I meet senators/representatives & other local government officials…if only I weren’t still at home lol.
I have to let them know soon…ugh!</p>
<p>I had a long discussion with an art teacher about what courses I am signed up for next semester and what my long term plans were for doing a minor in art. I then found out where I am living next year (or where I would be living if I were staying, which I’m not) and talked about it with my friends. The whole time I kept thinking of it as an alternate reality. I haven’t told my friends and profs yet, so I keep thinking, “it doesn’t matter, I won’t be here” but I can’t say it. I even discussed how many people transfer out of my school with a friend. It felt so weird b/c she didn’t know that I will be one of those people! I have a specific day planned out to tell people but I’m trying to enjoy my final month here before I start saying goodbye and thinking about finally leaving :D</p>
<p>I’m waiting until right before the last week of classes, and then I’ll tell them all at the same time. I wrote them all personal notes. I’m kind of looking forward to it not being a secret anymore.</p>
<p>I couldn’t do that. I meant to keep it a secret at first, but then I felt like I was basically lying every time I opened my mouth. My plans to transfer have been long known, which may or may not be a good thing.</p>
<p>I’ve only been at my school a year, and even though I consider my friends fairly close, this decision is personal and goes above their heads. I would also expect them to understand, of course, because it is just bettering my circumstances for my future. </p>
<p>I’ve procrastinated registering for classes, and now I think I may have screwed myself over if I don’t get in where I want! My major is Biology, yet my school only offers General Biology I every Fall. I missed it last year (didn’t know I was going to do Biology until after school started) and now I missed it this year and the classes are full again! As I sit here trying to plan my schedule, I find it really hard to take it seriously because of how badly I don’t wanna be hear, yet I know the chance is probably about 50/50. ):</p>
<p>Actually, I do think that my frankness about transferring may have kept me from making some friends. Which is sad, and will be much, much sadder if I don’t transfer anywhere, but still. Oh, well.</p>
<p>I know exactly what you mean…its weird tho cuz at the beginning of second semester I was soo sure about transferring, thats the only thing I wanted and looked forward to. But now that its getting closer, I am becoming unsure. It seems like it is becoming a reality now rather than just a hypothetical situation. I may actually never see these people again… </p>
<p>It was really sad yesterday when I spent hours reminiscing with my friends about all the fun times we had this year, and it just hit me then. :/</p>
<p>I’ve already been accepted to a few schools that I’ll gladly transfer to next year…I’m still thinking I should register for classes at my current school for next year just in case I fail a class this quarter and get kicked out of the transfer institutions. On the other hand, registering is a hassle that I don’t really want to go through.</p>
<p>To everyone who’s a male, this is going to sound really ridiculous.</p>
<p>I was reading a column in Cosmo today and it was the funniest thing because it described the feeling that every single one of us is having. The article was about letting yourself run away when you know that a situation is irreparable, rather than staying in a situation that makes you unhappy to try to work through it.
I want to go. I know that I don’t want to be in my college anymore. But I feel guilty about leaving especially after I told my advisers and my classmates, both of which have extensively tried to convince me that I’m in the right place. But I know that when I go to another college I will be happier, and so I’m taking the advice that Cosmo gave me and, without feeling guilty, I’m running away rather than trying to work my way through something that will just make me miserable.</p>
<p>So yeah, it’s a little weird. I’ve been ignoring all of my emails from the school and started watching tv on weeknights. It’s a revelation.</p>