<p>............OR TIME TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND WASH YOUR HAIR??? OR TIME TO DO ANYTHING BESIDES STUDYING AND SOLVING SCEINCE PROBLEMS SETS????</p>
<p>I'm a sophomore, and am probably gonna major in physics or biology.</p>
<p>I'm taking 3 science classes and 1 math this semester, and I feel like this semester, I'm socially ostracized regardless of my intention. I don't go out AT ALL during the weekend, and I don't eat with friends anymore, because I always end up spending an hour at the cafeteria if I do. Gladly, I'm not tempted to go out to parties like I was last year, because I'm now more focused on studying(or getting an A and being on dean's list). </p>
<p>Although I cut off all my social activities, I always feel like I need more time to finish up the study materials. I spend time in the science labs and discussions, it is utterly ridiculous (3 hour lab for each bio and chem, and 2 hour lab for physics and 2 hour discussion for all 3 sciences). Most of the time, I'm either taking notes for my bio, or doing problem solving for physics, chem and calc III. Still, I don't get to solve all the problems assigned. </p>
<p>What I'm trying to say is that I'm sort of fed up with all the problem solvings and I feel like my emotions are so still thesedays that I don't get excited or feel rewarded or stimulated. Science courses are challenging and require time and effor commitment, so I DO GET CHALLENGED AND STIMULATED ACADEMICALLY, but MY HEART IS NOT THRILLED OR INSPIRED by solving all the math problems, by the professors, or by other classmates in sience and engineering department with HYGIENE PROBLEMS and with NO SOCIAL DESCENCY or SKILLS. (You know what type of people I'm talking about..People who are smart academically only in their own fields, but they don't know how to tie their shoes, and don't give a s.h.i.t. about politics and world news, and play computer or video games.)</p>
<p>I miss my literature and philosophy classes from last year. I miss writing papers and reading books and poetry. I miss discussions in class when I can contribute my thought and listen to other classmates. I miss drawing and painting and just being creative and artistic. I miss my French class and the professor who always dressed up fancy for 8 am class and who had a deep knowledge not only in the language, but also in French art, literature, and history. I was always enlightend and inspired by classmates, professors, and authors of numerous literatures and poetries. </p>
<p>I don't like the huge size of science classes room full of 200~400 people sitting in the auditorium and listen to professor's reading the powerpoint slides off. It's just so impersonal and emotionless. </p>
<p>Last year, I had so much to talk about with my friends or in any social scene, about art and what not, but this semester, I don't really have any topics on my mind. In a social scene, I can't really talk about how carboxyl group in polypeptide chain is bonded to other groups, or osmosis, or uniform circular motion or kepler's law or newton's law. It is so obvious that my public speaking and argumentive skills have been deteriorated and my writing skills has gotten rusty throughout the semester. </p>
<p>I can't believe I've just spent more than 15 minutes writing this, but I'm just wondering if all science majors feel like I do?? I feel like I'm floundering thesedays with no emotion or inspiration. Do you guys think the science study doesn't suit my personality? I just feel like "being a science major" equals "giving up every pleasureable activity I enjoy." </p>
<p>Any thoughts or comments on my situation would be appreciated.</p>
<p>Thanks in advance.</p>