<p>Disclaimer: I apologize in advance for my cruddy grammar/syntax/diction... I'm writing this without any thought and through tears basically...</p>
<p>First of all I would just like to say that BC did truly have a positive effect on me (at least first semester). I instantly made a large group of friends, became more involved than I ever was in high school, got better grades than I ever did in high school, and was more passionate/happy than ever. As cheesy as it sounds, first semester really helped me find myself. I applied to BC a Chemistry major (A&S) and began second semester a Human Development a(LSOE) and Psychology (A&S) double-major, also pursuing minors in Special Education and Hispanic Studies. </p>
<p>HOWEVER, this semester things have gone downhill. FAST. Academically, I'm happier than ever before, but psychologically, I'm a mess. If you were to tell any of my friends at BC right now that I'm considering transferring, they wouldn't believe you. I sort of feel like I'm living a double life because I'm extremely involved on campus and have a lot of friends, love my schoolwork, etc. but I'm extremely under pressure and feel like **** on a daily basis. I feel like this school places so much emphasis on being perfect that it's suffocating me. Again, nothing against BC.. I'm just not compatible with the school. I've reverted back to the eating disorder I experienced in middle school, along with the addition of overexcercising and terrible self-esteem (I was very confident and outgoing in high school... don't feel the same way anymore). </p>
<p>Anyway, I've talked to people in University Counseling and they have basically told me that it might be best for to transfer because BC seems to set off triggers for me to slip into depressive symptoms, feelings of low self worth, etc. As a side note, I AM diagnosed as bipolar and there is a family history of depression on my dad's side. </p>
<p>Sorry for all that information (I know none of you probably care about my life), but I felt it was necessary to state. So I guess what I'm asking is:</p>
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<li><p>How difficult would it be to transfer into these schools from BC? Do I stand a chance? Or should I wait to transfer after my sophomore year? Quite honestly, I feel like I barely got into BC in the first place (29 ACT, 1990 SAT, yikes!). At BC, however, I received a 3.9 GPA last semester and I got an A in my honors chemistry class (I am in the departmental honors program.) The reasoning behind me choosing these schools in the first place is that I love Tufts's Child Development program and the psychology programs at both schools.</p></li>
<li><p>What are your general perceptions/experiences of/relating to the student bodies at Wellesley and Tufts? The counselors at BC say that one of my triggers of anxiety and depression-related symptoms come from being surrounded by too many people unlike me (I am a Mexican-American woman from a middle class family in the Midwest). Something I've noticed about myself lately is that I tend to be very put off by people who are superficially nice but who are not sincere... I've become very paranoid this semester as some of my so-called friends have turned around and screwed me over. I'm not used to this because at the high school I went to, no one was superficially nice. People were either genuinely nice or mean... It made me a lot less paranoid and more willing to engage in conversation with people because I knew right away if they were an ally or an enemy. Sorry for the rant...</p></li>
<li><p>At this point, do you think transferring would help me at all? Or do you think I should take a gap year or something of that effect to give myself some time to chill out?</p></li>
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<p>Thank you in advance to anyone who answers</p>
take care</p>