<p>I am freshman currently enrolled at the University of Delaware from North Jersey, about 30 miles from NYC. I was really excited to come to Delaware over the summer and had a good first week here.</p>
<p>As the semester went along though, I was not having as much fun and I started to get stressed and anxiety. I even thought I was becoming a little depressed. Here's why:</p>
<p>I feel like I have only been close to a few people on my floor. I do not feel like my relationships with people are going anywhere. I have joined two academic clubs, intramural sports, and am applying for an ambassador job and still haven't gotten anywhere.</p>
<p>I only think about going home. During Hurricane Sandy, I had to go home and never felt better being there. The moment I had to start to get ready to go back, I became upset and had no motivation to head back to school. I originally planned to go home for a concert before Thanksgiving break and I only look forward to then, instead of everything before that. I am legit counting down the days until the next time I'll be home.</p>
<p>I do like to drink and will smoke occasionally. However, sometimes I just don't feel like that kid who wants to get totally wasted every second he can. That's the only thing I feel like people look forward to doing every weekend. I feel like I force myself to just to socialize.</p>
<p>I'm thinking of transferring closer to home, possibly commuting. I just don't know if I haven't given Delaware enough of a chance and enough time. It's been a little over two months and my anxiety, stress, and depression has not gotten any better. The simplest of things start to bother me. Sometimes, I get to the point where I cannot even focus on my work. I am going to talk to a counselor/psychiatrist soon. I feel like transferring closer to home will be better for me.</p>
<p>Am I just homesick and still getting use to college or is Delaware just not the place for me?</p>