<p>So a little background on me, I was at Berklee College of Music for my freshman year, then I decided that music wasn't the career for me. By the time I had decided to transfer it was too late to do so for the fall, so I took the semester off, and did online classes that spring. I transferred to Northeastern University because I thought I really liked the city of Boston, but I'm finding myself at a crossroads. I've been here about a week, and I'm homesick and lonely and miserable. I have a special relationship with my parents, and found myself spending time with them all throughout high school. </p>
<p>I understand that homesickness is part of being at school, but I didn't feel this way when I went to my first school, but being at home for that year has almost made it worse. I'm seriously considering going back home, getting a job and commuting to a school closer to me. I live in New Jersey so pretty much any school there or in NYC is doable. </p>
<p>I realize that I have to be independent and create my own life, but doing it up here in Boston just isn't doing it for me. I feel like I'd be so much happier getting a job, doing schoolwork, and finding new friends out of the comfort of home/my general hometown area. It's not like I'm looking to come back to my highschool friends, because everyone has moved away. I don't know, it's just that when people talk about being excited to go back to school, I've never felt that way. If I didn't need to get a degree, I honestly wouldn't even go to college. But I realize it's a necessary evil. </p>
<p>The worst part is Northeastern is incredibly expensive, and I can really only afford this current semester before I have to take out loans and such. If I withdraw now I can get a 100% refund, and possibly save 10's of thousands by going to a school closer to home. I feel like it's a possible win-win. In a way, I just feel like living at home would be the best of both worlds. I understand that it's tough to make friends as a commuter, but I'm having a tough enough time now. I'm meeting lots of people and doing lots of clubs/things but I just feel an emptiness that is absolutely miserable. Even when I'm with people I can't help but think how much I don't want to be there. What should I do?</p>