<p>Thanks amendez,</p>
<p>Your perspective is encouraging; but as hard as it is to transfer, my situation is more slim than the chances of G.W.'s memoirs ever getting a publisher.</p>
<p>I grew up in a tiny town and attended a tiny, tiny school. It is extremely rural and impoverished. There was no real opportunity to do anything special, academically or otherwise. I worked hard and tried to stay busy with the few clubs and sports available. I was a straight A student, advanced in every subject, involved in every single EC on campus, dedicated to the tutoring and mentoring program at my school for 3 years, varsity volleyball and track, FBLA, Newspaper, knowledge bowl, and on and on...(boring) </p>
<p>Unfortunately, the lack of intellectual stimulation, diversity, and overall narrowness of my existence started to really get to me. I developed Major depressive disorder, and various other mental hang ups, which did nothing to improve my situation. If anything it got worse. My dad doesn't believe in mental illness, and constantly put me down for my inability to persevere and get myself together.</p>
<p>Things at home were so bad that I eventually just decided to get my GED and leave. After my junior year, I enrolled at Colorado State University, and things improved for a while, but in the back of my mind something just never seemed right.</p>
<p>I had a complete mental breakdown, got heavy into drugs and alcohol, and completely alienated every person in my life who could have possibly helped me. I actually spent an entire month in my room, and lost about 23 pounds. Needless to say my 4.0 at C State was completely destroyed.</p>
<p>It was one of the most difficult times in my life, but I've finally found a medication that works (Thank God!), and have been in therapy for awhile. I'm to a point where I want to try for the things that I missed out on since I didn't graduate, and Swarthmore is pretty much my one and only.</p>
<p>No matter what, I will be back in school this fall, but It would mean so much to me to be given the opportunity to show how hard I can work, and how much I know I can contribute to Swat if they would just give me the opportunity.</p>
<p>It was so liberating to just send in my app, but I made the mistake of letting myself believe it was possible. Now I'm hooked, and my fingers are crossed.</p>
<p>Sooo, that's my story. What's yours?</p>