<p>I am a community college freshman and I live on my own away from home. I have regretted this decision so much that I don't even want to live life anymore.</p>
<p>I have received the following finaid:
BOGW
$1,300 Pell Grant
Cal Grant A
$10,000 private (sallie maes) loan
$3,500 government loan </p>
<p>I have no idea why I felt the need to move away from home. I was just being a senior in highschool wanting to have fun in beautiful San Diego while going to college with friends. I just wish I could go back and change that decision, even if it means giving up my left nut. I was meant to go to a four year. I worked ****ing hard for four years in high school to get above average grades (3.5 unweighted college gpa) and what did I do wrong? I DIDN'T TAKE MY SATS. I was under the impression from teachers at my school (who preach that community college is probably the best route for anyone looking to save money) that community college would be the cheapest therefore the best choice for me. And what did I do? I HAD TO MAKE IT MORE EXPENSIVE...stupid me. Not only that, but had I gone to a four year, I'd be receiving finaid I never knew I was eligible for before it was too late and was already signed up for a CC. Because at the beginning of senior year I felt that CC was the best choice due to price, I never ended up taking my SAT.</p>
<p>Is it too late to fix this? Am I stuck on this transfer from a CC ride now? Can I take my SATs and somehow transfer early? Should I just stay, nut up and stick with my original plans to transfer into SDSU? Should I go back home and transfer to another local CC to avoid living costs and transfer to a four year from there?</p>