This is my first post on CC so I’m not sure if I’m doing this right… I just really need help and I don’t know where to turn.
I’m 6 weeks into NYU and I’ve never felt more alone in my entire life. I honestly chose the school because it was the most prestigious college I got into and I was really surprised and honored to be admitted, even though it had never been a frontrunner for me before getting in. I didn’t consider location/distance from home because I didn’t want my choices to be inhibited by that, but now I’m realizing it’s really difficult to be far away from my family in California. I miss the state, I miss my city, and I really miss my family (my mom is like, my best friend). NYU is an open campus and it’s a huge school so it’s really hard to meet people, so far I only know 2 people I’m remotely comfortable asking to get dinner. I eat by myself. I go to class. I go back to my dorm. It’s really lonely. I’m doing well academically but the thought of spending the next 4 years of my life here is really depressing (and according to my high school friends, it shouldn’t feel this way). There are two things I like. Film Production Club and Women’s Choir, and just the convenience of having resources in the city.
I know I want to major in Film Studies and ultimately get a job in the film industry like my father. I’d be graduating from NYU Tisch here, or the Film Studies program at Chapman if I were to transfer. I don’t know if the change would have any impact on my career. I’m not exactly an Orange County kind of girl (I don’t like partying, I’m very shy and not very girly, I’m more studious than outgoing), but I’d be close to home at Chapman and at a small school that still has a prestigious name in film.
I can’t find anyone on here or elsewhere who’s transferred from NYU to Chapman, but if any of you has, how was the experience? Is 6 weeks too early to know if NYU is a good fit for me? When does it reach a point where I should seriously consider transferring? If you go to Chapman, do you have to party to fit in?
I’m just really stuck and looking for any help/answers because the idea that I chose wrong is really starting to depress me, but I really just do not like being here, every day I feel sadder and more unsure…