<p>Prompt: Describe the world you come from - for example your family, community, or school- and tell us how your world has shaped your dreams and aspirations.
Essay: My world, which consists of both negative and positive environments, has intricately molded me into the person I am today and has inspired my dreams to go more into depth with the mind. The certain challenges that I have faced from dealing with family to feeling mentally anguished at school has contributed greatly to my prolonged depression.
Ever since I was young it was my oldest sister who has had the greatest influence on my dreams. Through my young eyes she was a talented dancer, artist, and scientist.We had and still have a lot of common from small insignificant things like our love to doodle, dance, observe insects, dissect family pets to find the cause of death, cut paper dolls of the famous russian prima ballerina Anna Pavlova, and watch shows and documenteries that led into deep discussions of life religion, family, food, history, and space to significant things like having the same challenges, being bullied, attending catholic schools, and having nearly the same ideas. Little did I know that all the while she was falling deep into a pit of depression that she eventually never came out of. My sister dropped everything she stopped dancing, painting, going to school and instead sleeps all day to work night shift she dislikes the idea of being in a relationship and interacting with people other than her family she has no belief in becoming successful in anyway and lastly she has no confidence in herself, the only goal she has now is to "pay all my debts by the time I'm 33 and die."
I have come to realize that I am her reflection I too have fallen into a pit of depression which began in middle school cruel labels like "annoying" "lopsided boobed girl" "not good enough" and actions like being thrown play doe at, being isolated from everyones cliques and having to deal with my crush only wanting to be close to me over a deal he made with his friends, have haunted me and soon became into a continuos condition of depression that throughout the following years because of other additional factors grew bigger. Now I sometimes find myself like my sister I prefer to sleep than anything else I avoid socializing with people at times I have no confidence no self esteem. Depression destroyed any ideal illusion of myself and showed me what I began to beleive is the real me. I felt a physical change on my brains performance I began to have a harder time remembering things, I couldn't sleep, I became indecisive and my optimism grew thin.
However seeing my sister give up and end up in the condition she is in now has given me a reason to not fall any deeper.In fact it is because of my own experience in depression and my sister's shift from bright and inspiring to bleak and gloomy that I want to acquire more kowledge on how the mind is affected by external forces and how, in the long run, any traumatic life experience can easily change one's perspective. I also want to understand how music, technology, movement, etc. play a role on the mind to find solutions to various brain diseases.</p>