<p>This school has been my number one choice since last July when I visited. I got accepted with a $10,000 Udel Scholarship. As greatful (and I mean GREATFUL) as I am, I still cannot afford $30,000 a year (assuming it averages to be about $40,000 more or less total per year). Unfortunately, In my blind excitement after I visited, I had my heart set on UDel. I loved absolutely everything about the school! Yeah I saw the prices, but it never really HIT me until now. Why is this so expensive??? I thought this was supposed to be one of those good AND affordable schools for both in-state and OOS (me). Now, they do not seem to be any different than the other schools similar to them, money-wise. I know I will have to take out lots of loans (and this is why I am freaking out), but I most certainly cannot take out THAT much. It's the loan payments in the end that I'm freaking out over. And let's say I stay off campus my last two years, I still cannot afford to pay tuition AND rent all by myself. I'll still need loans!!! AHHHHHH</p>
<p>I'll be switching my major to Ecology too, and they make nothing, all in the hopes of getting into a good Graduate program in Evolutionary Biology.... MORE LOANS. </p>
<p>How is any of this possible and why so much "stressure" (my new word) on young people??? Does this country NOT want us to help it prosper in the future? I know I certainly cannot help it if I'm drowning in loans.</p>
<p>Anyway, I don't want to go anywhere else, but what am I to do? My family cannot do a thing, and I really wish I reveived some grants or FAFSA awards :( I can't eat or sleep over this and have burst into tears in an anxiety attack for two nights in a row, since I found out I was accepted. I should be happy, but I've never felt more miserable in my life :'(</p>