<p>Please excuse my scattered thoughts, I have a headache from stress..:(</p>
<p>So am currently finishing up my second semester of college and am once again lost. When I first entered I wasn't sure what I wanted to major in because the major I orginally wanted to do (biology) didn't interest me anymore. Finally, I know what I want to major in and I realized that the majority of the courses I took, don't even apply to my major. Now am ****ed because now I know for sure that am not graduating on time. On top of that I have been having a hard time in school. Along w/ me not liking the school (its a community college), I feel like I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I don't want to tell my family. I can suddenly switch from being happy to feeling depressed easily. It has not become a once in a while thing, I feel this way everyday. But am not at all anti-social. I have friends that I talk too and hangout with but I find myself locked in my room often, watching movies and listening to music. I'd rather tune out the world because am so unhappy.</p>
<p>At this point, everyday is a struggle to go to school. I try to remind myself what my goal is (which is to transfer) and it helps a little. But my unhappiness is seriously affecting my school work. I don't know what to do anymore and am tired of just wasting time. I want to transfer after fall of semester because I need to get into my major. But its obvious that I can't transfer w/ an extremely low GPA. </p>
<p>BTW I have been having struggling with my English Comp 2 work and I have been frequently going to my Professor for help. He has been very helpful as far as encouragement and recommended that I go to counseling or peer counseling. Since we have been talking about other issues, such as the course load am taking now and so on. I was thinking about going to that.</p>
<p>Any advice?</p>
<p>“I feel like I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I don’t want to tell my family. I can suddenly switch from being happy to feeling depressed easily. It has not become a once in a while thing, I feel this way everyday. But am not at all anti-social. I have friends that I talk too and hangout with but I find myself locked in my room often, watching movies and listening to music. I’d rather tune out the world because am so unhappy.”</p>
<p>Sounds a bit like how I used to be, and in some ways still am (although I’ve gotten much better since I started therapy and antidepressants). You really ought to consider seeing a psychiatrist. If he/she’s any good then he’ll see you for a few sessions and then decide whether to prescribe medicine, rather than see you once and write you an Rx.</p>
<p>I am but am trying to find a free one or a low cost one that is completely confidential. I don’t want to share this with my family. I am an adult and I should start handling my own responsibilities.</p>
<p>Thank you for the advice though.</p>
<p>They won’t share it with your family unless you’re considered to be posing a serious threat to your own life or others’ lives. Which you obviously don’t. </p>
<p>If he does blab, you can get a very nice settlement out of a lawsuit anyway, and then you won’t even need college :P</p>
<p>I wouldn’t be so quick to diagnose anything while you are in a situation you find is making you unhappy. It may all be related to the place you’re in right now and have nothing to do with mental illness. It could be that you are just really unhappy at the community college you are attending. Keep your goal of transferring right in front of you and know that there is a way out of your situation. Try and get support from either your school, your friends or your family to get through this rough time. College can be very stressful and bring up a lot of issues in some students. Maybe a school counselor could help you sort through it all.</p>
<p>@DCHurricane</p>
<p>I know but no school would make me happy :)</p>
<p>@LilyMoon</p>
<p>I agree, I have been dealing w/ these problems for quite sometime but I always try to think happy thoughts or buy something nice to distract my mind. But after doing some more research last night, I thought that maybe it could just be alot stress. So I plan on doing yoga sometime next week to release some of this negative energy. </p>
<p>And today I spoke to a counselor at my college and she was very nice. She told me if I want to speak to her, I can come in at any time, which made me happy:)</p>
<p>Thank you for the advice.</p>
<p>I’m sorry :(. I can sort of relate. I’ve been taking science courses all year and feeling very discouraged at the moment haha. I can’t decide whether I should push through it or make a complete 180 degree switch to something else. </p>
<p>I’ve wondered if I’m bipolar at times, but I think in my case it’s a case of being too tired - huge sleep debt. Maybe a little Holden Caulfield syndrome too :p.</p>
<p>Hope everything works out for you :).</p>
<p>Try to find a clinic with a psychiatrist or psychologist who will work on a sliding scale. Does your school have any kind of health benefit? Do you have insurance through your family? You need to find out what your mental status is, because medication CAN help if you need it.</p>