I am surrounded by people in extreme ends of the spectrum regarding the vax and I feel I can’t win. Either way, I’m afraid of the emotional fall out when I get the vaccine. I will have family members and friends who will be so upset with me for getting it. Relationships will be damaged. And currently I’m dealing with friends who think I’m crazy for waiting, like I’m some kind of fringe anti-vaxxer which is certainly not the case.
I know I will be sneered at here for this, but what I have been struggling with most is the fact that I don’t have a choice to get a vaccine that has absolutely no connection to a cell line that originated with an abortion. Every available vaccine in the US has some connection for either development, manufacture or testing. HEK293 or PER.C6. I would never criticize others for being vaccinated for Covid with any vaccine but I honestly wish I had a choice. If a different vaccine without that connection were available, I would have been one of those online day and night trying to get an appointment. As it is, I am dragging my feet, knowing my conscience will be pricking me.
I have been following this issue for at least 15 years and my kids are all vaccinated with vaccines that have these connections, so, so like I said, I am not anti-vax, but it is still something for which I wish I had a better choice.
And, yes, I do worry about getting infected and spreading it. I can be careful but the people around aren’t always.
I have had my antibodies tested twice three weeks apart and both times I had IgM positive but IgG negative. I am think the IgM positive was probably a false positive and due to cross-reactivity due to an autoimmune issue but might test the antibodies again to try to confirm it. If I had IgG antibodies I might try to wait for the kind of vaccine I want.
H finally scheduled his vaccine and I am relieved.
My oldest D has a family history of chronic ITP on her father’s side. She herself has a history of symptoms of thrombocytopenia (petechiae) with abnormal clotting tests. She will not be getting the vaccine for now.
Second daughter is waiting. She is concerned about the fertility question, and she wants to be a mom more than anything. Like others, it is probably not much of a likelihood but the potential mechanism doesn’t seem all that different from the myocarditis.
Third daughter is vaccinated and I took her to the appointment.
Last child I am waiting on because she is in that youngest age group which was just opened up, and I will feel better once more data is out since the number is that age group in that trial seemed small from what I read.
So this is our story of my vaccine reluctance. I am sure people here will criticize it, but that will probably only make me drag my feet longer. I think if people were to say, I hear you and I’m sorry and I want the best for you, it would push me in the direction of getting the vaccine sooner rather than later. No one in my social circles is doing that. I’m just getting ridiculously unscientific conspiracy theories sent to me by the anti-vax camp, or shamed by those who think we should get the vaccine no questions asked.